thinking about retrying you. Itâs been pointed out to me that the evidence withheld from the defense wasnât necessarily inconsistent with guilt. I think a lot of judges would have denied Teddyâs petition on that basis.â
I tried to explain it as succinctly as I could. âAll the evidence shows is that Caroline was with another man before her death. It doesnât show that this other man killed her. In fact, some people might think that it supplies the missing link of motive. You come home in the middle of the day, find her in bed with another man, and in a jealous rage beat her to death.â
âWe got lucky, is what youâre saying. Unbelievable.â
âThereâs also the possibility of an appeal by the state. The court of appeals might look at this one and shrug. Harmless error is what they call it when they think you might be guilty anyway. If the judge denies bail, you might find yourself stuck in here longer than you think. Itâs a dirty bargain, making you plead guilty to a crime you didnât commit, but youâve got to remember that this mess could drag on for years.â
âIâm not pleading guilty to anything. They donât even have probable cause.â
âThen weâve got to be ready to bring a bail motion at your hearing. Teddy can handle it. Or I can, if you want.â
Teddy stirred in his chair, glanced at me. We hadnât talked about this part. He was still technically the lead attorney on my fatherâs case, but he hadnât made a court appearance since before the shooting, and a first-degree murder case wasnât exactly the place to start.
My father spoke carefully. âTeddy hasnât been in front of a judge in over five years.â
I didnât say anything. But the expression on my face was enough.
âOh, shit, kid. Now youâre going to make me cry. I feel rotten about it. I really do. But itâs my life here. Teddy did his job, now itâs time for you to come in and do what you do.â
âYouâre the alpha dog, now,â Teddy said. âNo point beating round the bush.â
âItâs not a good thing or a bad thing,â Lawrence continued. âItâs just a fact.â
I nodded. âOkay, Iâll do the hearing. Thereâs no conflict with that, but youâll need to find another attorney for the long haul if they donât drop the case. There isnât a better public defenderâs office in the country than San Franciscoâs.â
My father nodded. It was settled, then. âWhat are my chances of making bail?â he wanted to know. âItâs not one of the legal issues Iâve kept up on. Itâs not really a factor in my client group.â
âDecent,â I said. âLet me ask you this. If you do get out, what are your plans?â
âNo such thing as plans in here. Once you start making any, youâre finished for life inside.â He sat back and sighed heavily. âI wouldnât impose on you, if thatâs what youâre asking.â
âI talked to Dot.â
He seemed suddenly to become still. âAnd?â
âYou told me you were going to give her the news, but she had to hear it from me. You can imagine how that made her feel.â
âI couldnât do it,â he said woefully. âEvery day, I meant to call her, believe me.â
He seemed truly ashamed, but also helpless and paralyzed by the new possibilities life had opened before him.
I looked at him with pity and frustration. âWhatâs wrong with you? Sheâs clearly devoted to you, and for someone as independent as she seems, thatâs saying a lot. Whatâs she do?â
âTrauma nurse. She doesnât like to talk about her work.â
âSo youâre going to act like you donât believe sheâll honor your engagement if and when you get out? Whatâs that say about your respect for