us.â
âThe past isnât even the past,â I told her. âNot for him, and not for me. Not until the state dismisses these charges.â
Weâd see her at the hearing, I said.
âSo what do you think, should he take the deal?â Teddy asked when I finished recapping my conversation.
âJeanie has a point. The withheld evidence could actually bolster the prosecutionâs case, give him a motive he didnât have before. But no, the thought of him pleading guilty puts a bad taste in my mouth. Obviously weâve got to tell him about the offer, but it seems to me that they ought to dismiss the charges.â
âI agree,â Teddy said, looking uncomfortable with the reversal of our roles, me automatically taking the lead and he looking to me for confirmation of what he was thinking. âBut if heâs got a chance to walk away from it, time served . . . Part of me thinks heâs dumb not to grab the deal.â
âThatâs his decision,â I said. âWe donât get to make it for him.â
My tone was sharper than Iâd intended, and my words had the effect of shutting down further debate. I wanted our father to fight, and at the moment I wasnât interested in probing my motives. As with my last visit, we had to wait over half an hour at the guard shack in the wind and cold out there on the bay before theyâd let us in. During our wait, we didnât speak any more of the deal that was on the table, a deal that Teddy clearly wanted my father to take.
One of the officers had decided to be a hard-ass. He wanted us to see Lawrence in the regular visitorsâ room, where conversations were recorded and there could be no expectation of privacy. After making us wait around just because he could, he finally let us go through to the attorney-client conference area.
âHey there, Papa,â Lawrence said when the guard finally brought him in.
Teddy rose, and our father clasped hands with him, the closest he could get to a hug with the olive-jacketed guards watching through the glass. âI knew you could do it.â Lawrenceâs voice was tight, higher than normal. His excitement was palpable, in contrast with the impatience heâd shown toward me the other day. âTeddy, they canât stop talking about you in here. People coming up to me Iâve never met, saying, âThat boy of yours, he never gave up on you.â Youâre a hero to every poor son of a bitch in this place. You had every reason to give up and you never did.â
âWe had a little holdup there,â Teddy said, his hand still in our fatherâs.
âYou got shot in the fucking head. You call that a holdup?â Lawrence shook his head disbelievingly. âYou know Iâm the whole reason he was so hot to get his law license back, just to show those fuckers that Teddy Maxwell always wins.â
Lawrence took his time with the photos Teddyâd brought. Finally he slipped the stack back into the envelope. âSheâs beautiful,â he said. âYou ought to be goddamned proud.â
âYou keep them,â Teddy said.
âDonât need to. Iâm getting out of here soon, arenât I?â He slid the envelope back. âYou get real tired of living your life secondhand. Or thirdhand, as it is.â He turned to me, drumming his fingers excitedly on the table. âSo where are we at with the case?â
âAngela Crowder is the DA. She made an offer. You plead to second-degree murder and the state will agree to recommend a sentence of time served, meaning you walk out of the courtroom a free man. Youâd be on parole, so they could always violate you. I told her you wouldnât take it. The offerâs good until the hearing, though.â
âTheyâre bluffing,â Lawrence said.
âI wouldnât be so sure. What she said is that theyâre investigating. It sounds to me like theyâre