skirts, she spoke evenly. âWill you stop by your club tonight?â
He laughed at her ludicrous question, but the sound was foreign and grated. He grew silent and fought to rein in the formidable temper that had helped bring his life to the low point he currently enjoyed.
Before he answered, he leaned forward in his seat to glare a warning. âIâll be damned if we do this again. You know bloody well that I am not going to the club or to any of your balls or soirees or anywhere else I might have to see or hear ofâ¦of my situation,â he snapped, his face tense with resentment.
Though she should have been accustomed to it by now, his mother had looked startled at his quickening fury. Nevertheless, she said, âYou have a responsibility to your title, Derek. Itâs time, past time, you had an heir.â
âGrantâs my heir,â heâd said, naming his brother.
âBut a sonââ
âCannot and will not happen.â
His baleful tone hadnât even slowed her. No, she took a fortifying breath and proceeded to drag them both through the same old argument. She never missed a chanceâthey had it every time he was in London.
For what had to be half the night, heâd listened to her rant and plead, changing tactics with expert precision. Finally, heâd grown so furious heâd shot out of his chair to leave, intending to stay away from his family until he sailed.
But she wouldnât let it go.
âSo which route are you sailing this time? China? South America?â she questioned before he could escape to the hall.
Reluctantly he turned back toward her, making his face cold as dead ash. âLondon to Sydney.â
âSydney?â she replied with mock excitement. âOh, yes, Queen Victoriaâs Great Circle Race. I read about it in the paper some time back. How patriotic of you.â Her brittle smile belied the sentiment of her words. âAnd how utterly convenient to find yet another voyage that goes so far afield.â
Derek couldnât disagree.
She studied his face. âThere and back should take you how long?â
âHalf a year.â Then, seeing the disappointment in her flinty gray eyes, eyes so like his own, heâd once again turned toward the door.
As expected, nothing had been resolved. But her parting shot kept running through his mind: âI often wonder if you go to sea because you love itâ¦or because you are a base coward.â
Christ, he needed a drink.
What did that woman want him to do? And his brother Grant, whoâd regarded him with awkward commiseration as Derek stormed past him and out the door? Everyone involved knew he could find no out, no possible redemption. He understood it, and damn it, he behaved accordingly.
He wondered vaguely what his mother and brother would say if they learned that something had finally pierced through the weary anger that clung to him. That a young dockside whore with soulful, dark eyes had provoked the earl to a pulse. A whore in boysâ clothing working the Mermaid, of all placesâ
Several shrieks coming from ahead interrupted his thoughts. Curious to see what had unhinged the mob tonight, he made his way to a row of canvas-wrapped crates at the side of the walk and stepped up to get a better view. Under a canopy of large, cheaply milled hats and gathered heads, a small lad sped down the quay, running clumsily into several outraged women loitering about. With a quick lift of his chin, Derek made out two rough men beyond, plowing through the crowd after him.
Derek jumped down lightly and, with a brush of his hands, continued on his way. That boy had riled the wrong people, he mused indifferently. Those men were cutthroatsâthe kid didnât have a chance against one of them, let alone two. Even knowing this, he vowed to look the other way, as every other person on the docks would. He was no different from the worst sorts out here on this