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you two are fighting,” I said. I didn’t like her, but I wasn’t going to be in the middle of this mess.
    “Eva, please. And whatever is going on between me and Dr. Nyssa started long before today. I’m just sorry you had to see any of that.”
    “You shouldn’t make her leave, not because of me.” He pushed me towards to the end of the couch.
    “Eva, this isn’t something you need to worry about. And what does it matter, you’re not her biggest fan?” I watched him sit with such despair in his eyes.
    “Regardless of my feelings, you should never go to bed angry and you should never wake up mad.”
    “They kind of mean the same thing, don’t they?” he chuckled.
    “Not really. If you really cleared the air before you went to sleep, you slept peacefully and you wake up in a good mood.” I pulled myself up from the wheelchair using the crutches that leaned against the bed.
    “Can I help?” He stood up, his hands on my waist.
    “I’ve got this. Go handle your business. I’m sure I can find my way around this itty bitty place,” I laughed uncomfortably.
    “Eva, I know everything is a little confusing right now, but you can come to me.” He held onto my waist.
    “I’ll try to remember that,” I chuckled looking anywhere but at him.
    “Oh, how I wish I could keep you smiling all day long.” He looked at me with a smile that hugged me. One of his hands left my hip and cradled my face, bringing my eyes to his.
    It was a wonderland in those beautiful pearly blue eyes of his, both distracting and confusing. The dance in my stomach was something I never experienced before; that I could remember. I could melt right here, if he wasn’t so broken by the good doctor’s leave.
    “I’m sure I’ll be back to my old self in no time. But you should go, before she leaves.” I moved from his grasp, his hand slid from my waist slowly, leaving the dancing vibrations to move through my body.
    “I’ll check on you in a bit.” He reached for the doorknob. “And thank you, Eva.”
    “Now go.” I smiled.
    I went into the bathroom hoping to put myself back together. I tossed my barely there, blood soaked top, bra, and towel on the floor. The reflection in the mirror still surprised me.
    My hands shook as I reached for a clean towel off the rack next to me. I washed the dried blood from my face, paying special attention to my long, thin, tender nose. My neck and chest were next.
    Tears formed in my once hazel eyes as I dug harder and harder into my caramel skin. I leaned against the sink to gain my balance. I want to go home. I want my mom and dad. There was a reason they weren’t here, and I was afraid to know why.
    It was hours before I made it to bed. Thankfully, Caleb didn’t come back to check on me. I don’t think I could explain away my naked breakdown in the bathroom, even if I wanted to. It was hard trying to keep it together even as I snuggled into bed.
    The day nearly zipped by and I still felt like I was dreaming. A few pinches to my arm didn’t wake me. I was still in a strange room, lying in a strange bed. I stared at a strange ceiling and out a strange window. I was covered by strange blankets and placed my head on a strange pillow.
    I slept strange.
    I felt strange.
    I didn’t see Dr. Nyssa the following morning or many mornings after that. Caleb was so bothered by the argument with her when he brought me back to my room, I half expected her to wiggle her way into staying.
    The weeks following Dr. Nyssa’s leave were quiet. Any mention of her name and Caleb was intensely vague about her return. That seemed like the least of my worries.

Chapter 2
    Snow
     
    After nearly a month in the mansion, the walls were dancing. And I don't mean the dance-and-shout kind of dancing. No, these walls danced that somber, slow, unpopular song kind of dance. I'd grown unimpressed by my large room.
    I lived in a museum. I mean really, I was almost afraid to sit on the antique looking furniture, and I wouldn’t