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all I can ask for. We tried, but the love we have for one another is gone. Our love story is over along with this chapter of my life.
    I reflect on being in California. Do I regret it? No. Emma has a connection and relationship with Jamie and that’s what matters. When you become a parent your needs cease to exist. Your child comes before you and your world revolves around them. It’s a bittersweet feeling, but one that I’m glad is over.
    It was hard accepting a failed marriage. I would’ve done anything and everything for her, but the Jamie I fell in love with was gone. We agreed to be a family for Emma’s sake. The three of us lived in a high scale apartment and did the best we could. It was hard to date so there was another agreement we came up with. We kept each other satisfied at night; it was a mutual feeling and there weren’t any strings attached. However it started getting old after two years of fucking around. I was tired. I was exhausted. Jamie and I wanted our own happily ever after. We still lived together, but had our own lives. I dated and had fun, as did Jamie. The women I dated weren’t in it for the long run. They wanted what I couldn’t offer-love.
    Love was a fucked up emotion. People threw the damn word around as if it didn’t mean anything. I refused to settle down with anyone. I wanted the real thing, but that didn’t exist anymore. Finally I accepted the single life. Being single meant no complications and arguments.
    Putting Emma’s things in her suitcase I fall to the ground, my head between my knees. Anger and pain explode in my body. The look on Emma’s face when we told her the news breaks me apart. She cried and ran away from us.
    This is the best thing. I hope. The tears threaten my eyes. I need to be strong. A new life is waiting for us.
    Getting up from the bedroom floor I finish putting her things away. Walking back in the living room, there’s a picture of the three of us in the park on a shelf. I pick it up, running my hand over the framed picture, and remember when things weren’t so complicated.
    I cringe thinking about my short-lived marriage. The idea of getting married and love is foolish. Marriage is a game. Simple as that. It’s a fucked up game and someone is bound to get hurt in the end. I’ll never put myself in that position again.
    Questions flood my mind. Is taking Emma away from Jamie the best thing to do? Pulling out my phone I call the one person who knows how to help me clear my head. She answers on the first ring.
    “Nicky,” her happy tone makes me smile.
    “Lex I’m doing the right thing…Right?”
    “Of course you are.” She tells someone she’ll be right back and I feel like an ass for bothering her. “Listen, you need to come back home. You’re done in California. There’s nothing left for you. You said Jamie’s gonna be all over Europe and you hate your job. We miss you and Emma. This is the best thing that you can do. Believe me, okay?”
    I sit down on my sofa and lean back. Rubbing my tired eyes, trying to wrap my head around this mess. “I feel like I need to follow Jamie for Emma’s sake.”
    “Nicky, what’s that gonna do? You guys both deserve a life and it’s not fair to Emma.”
    “I know.”
    “Then stop moping. Emma’s gonna be fine. You’re gonna be fine. Everything will work out. I have to get back to the conference but text me when you get in. I love you k?”
    “Love you too,” I smile before disconnecting the call.
    My baby sister, Alexis, knows how to get through to me. Since we were young she’s been my best friend and as weird as it seems she knows me better than I know myself.
    It seems as though life is passing me by while I’m standing on the sidelines watching alone. I see people moving on and living their lives, while I’m still figuring mine out. Taking a deep breath I lean my head against the window, playing back Lex’s words and hoping the move is the best answer.
    I look at the time and notice we