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have to leave for the airport soon. Reaching for my phone again I call Jamie to see where they are. The phone rings twice before she answers.
    “Nicholas.”
    “Jamie we have to leave in an hour. When will you be done with Emma?”
    She laughs causing me irritation. I told myself to calm down and be patient. That’s one of my many downfalls, my impatience. “Don’t worry. We’ll be back soon. Just get the limo ready. My god you’re in a mood!”
    “No I’m not. Just hurry. I don’t want to be late.”
    “Alright alright. See you in fifteen. Bye Nicky.”
    I loathe that nickname. My name is Nicholas not Nicky. “Ten minutes Jamie,” I tell her before disconnecting our call.
    As soon as I get off the phone with Jamie my phone buzzes.
    Larry: Tell me my eyes are lying...You’re moving back?
    Me: Ha yeah. Should be flying out soon. Waiting for Jamie to come back with Emma
    Larry: Hayes...It’ll be good to have you back.
    Me: Yeah it’ll be good to be around family and friends again
    Larry: Club Lova for your famous return
    Me: Ha ok
    * * * * *
    We’re about to go through security when Jamie puts Emma down. “I’m gonna miss you sweetie,” she says hugging her.
    “Me too.”
    It hurts seeing them say goodbye to each other but we’re living two separate lives. Jamie has her modeling career, which is successful, while I’m heading back home to start a new adventure at Peterson & Thompson. I’ll admit it isn’t easy. The day Jamie walked out hits me.
    “Nicholas, just let me go. I don’t want this life. Don’t you understand? I never wanted a family. I can’t be a good mom and I don’t want to be with you.” I stood there not knowing what to say. I tried to bring her back in my arms but she pushed me away. “This is YOUR life, not mine. Just forget me okay?”
    “Our daughter-our daughter is in there. How can you walk away?”
    Jamie shrugged her shoulders, “Because I never wanted her, Nicholas.”
    “How could you Jamie?”
    “You wanna know how Nicholas!?” She got up and walked to me. The expression on her face was unreadable. “Because MY DREAMS are more important than being a fucking mom! Do you know how long it’s going to take me to get my body back?” She threw her arms in the air and walked away. Huffing and puffing, muttering under her breath.
    I stood there, speechless. Jamie was leaving us and I ran out of ideas to get her to stay. Our daughter was lying in her crib while Jamie’s out here complaining about her figure. “Jamie, you’re just going through a lot and you don’t mean this.”
    “Nicholas, I’m sorry okay.”
    And that was it. Jamie, the love of my life, walked out of our lives. There was nothing I could say to her and make her stay. Emma’s my life now and I needed to be strong because I was all she had.
    The words still sting, but for Emma I’d do anything to make her happy. Jamie’s never going to be able to take back missing out on the first year of our daughter’s life, but at least they have a special connection and Emma knows her mom. I think that’s what was most important.
    “Alright Princess, you ready?”
    She sniffles and wipes her eyes. “Yeah I think so.”
    Jamie leans in to give me a hug. “Take care of each other, Nicky. And stop being afraid. Find love and be happy.”
    “I’m fine.” Lie. I hated being alone. “Good luck out there. I’m proud of you.”
    Jamie wipes a tear from her eye. “That means a lot. Okay go! Have fun and be safe! I love you both.”
    “Love you Mommy!”
    Emma takes my hand and we walk through security. “Ready to go home?”
    “I think so. I’ll get to see everyone right? Grandma? Grandpa? Uncle Larry? And Aunt Alexis?” I nod my head. “Where are we gonna live Daddy?”
    “With Aunt Alexis for now until the house is ready. You’re gonna love it Emma. There’s a beach like right outside.” She holds my hand tighter and we walk through security without any problems.
    * * * * *
    Emma’s fast asleep