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flinched at her tone, slowly shaking her head. 
“I don’t know, sweetie.  No one did, you aren’t alone.”
    “But I lived with him.  Slept with him.  Made a
baby with him.  How did I not know that he was this monster, so cold and
unfeeling?”  Kate paused and closed her eyes.  She sank to her knees
in the middle of the bedroom.  In a whisper, Kate continued.  “He
saved me, Georgie.  He saved me and he stayed with me.  He didn’t
know who I was, but he stayed for five days in a hospital room with a woman he
didn’t know.  I know somewhere in there he must have loved me.”  Kate
glanced around the room, completely baffled.  “He loved me, married me,
made a baby with me.  But first, first he saved me.  I didn’t know he
had this in him. How is it possible he kept this part of himself from me?”
    “I don’t think he did.  At least not completely,
Kate.  You left him.  A part of you had to know.”
    Kate shook her head slowly.  “No Georgie.  No, I
left him because he wouldn’t help me.  He became distant and rude. 
He didn’t want anything to do with Mary.  He would tell me to get a
babysitter if I wanted to take a shower.  I thought us leaving would wake
him up.  Make him see that his selfishness was ruining our lives.  I
thought he was just scared of becoming a father.  I thought the nightmares
were just his way of working through the fears.  God!  He was missing
so much of Mary.”  Kate looked around the bedroom.  “But this. 
No, this is something very different, Georgie.  This is…this is…I don’t
know what this is, but it’s not Brad.  This isn’t my Brad.”
    Georgie walked over and knelt down beside Kate.  “I
know it doesn’t help, but you have a chance to start over here, Kate. 
You’ve only yourself to please now.  You and Mary, you’ll be a team,
you’ll be there for each other.  You need to start looking toward the
future and away from the past.”
    “He sat by my hospital bed for five days.  Five days,
Georgie!  He had no idea who I was.  I can’t wrap my head around
this.  How do I get past that?  How do I get past all we’ve been to
each other?” Kate rested her head on her sister’s shoulder and let out a long
sigh.  “I know you’re right, Georgie.  And I’ll get there, someday. I
need time to grieve.  When I walked down the aisle, I never expected it to
end like this.  Never in my wildest dreams.  I just wish I
understood.  I think if I knew the reason, I’d be able to find a bit of
closure.  It might make it easier to move on and look to the future. 
This is so hard.  I’m not ready for this next part.”
    “I don’t think anyone ever is.  But I’m here for you
and so is Tim.  You’ll get through this, we’ll help you.  You aren’t
alone, Kate.  It appears Brad is thrilled to be alone.  Eventually,
he might come to regret this.  But you.  You can’t regret this. 
It’s painful now, but you got the best part.  You got Mary.”
    Kate allowed a small smile to break through.  “Yes I
did. She is my miracle.  And I need to focus on her.  All of this was
just stuff.  It can’t be replaced, each piece was unique and special in a
way.  But I can collect new stuff.  That’s something that Mary and I
can do together.”  Kate sighed.  “Come on, let’s get out of
here.  There’s nothing here for me anymore.”
    Kate stood and walked out of the bedroom.  Taking a
last look around the house, she realized the house felt cold, lonely and
empty.  Exactly how she imagined Brad to be at this moment. She relocked
the door and left the key under the mat.  There was no point in keeping
it, she would never be back.
    “Thanks for coming with me Georgie.”
    “Are you sure you’ll be okay?  I can have Tim bring me
back later for my car.”
    “I’ll be fine.  I think I’m going to go home and finish
unpacking Mary’s bedroom.  I need to do something constructive with all
these pent up