turn into a truck. Want to see?â
âOkay.â
âI donât like her,â Kate said.
âYou donât know her.â
âWhen are you gonna live with us?â
âI donât know.â
âIâll help you clean your room,â Kate said.
âThank you, sweetie. I appreciate that.â I kissed her cheek.
âGeorge?â
âYes, Kate?â
âThis lady?â
âHer name is. Jean.â
âSheâs like a grandmother, isnât she?â
âWhat has your mother been telling you?â
âShe says sheâs about a hundred and fifty years old.â
âNot yet.â
Kate sat on her foot. âDoes she really have wrinkles on her butt?â
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Late one night three plainclothesmen arrested two Salvadoran women at Casa Romero and charged them with selling amphetamines.
âThey were diet pills,â Kelly told me afterward. âLaxatives. Itâs a war of nerves. Theyâre trying to crack us bit by bit. Theyâve subpoenaed our files.â
âYouâve got nothing to hide.â
âHarry, one of the volunteers here at the house â¦â
âWhat?â I said.
âHe made a couple of border runs.â
âJesus. Illegals?â
She nodded.
âYou told me ââ
âI know, but these were desperate people.â
âHow many trips did he make?â
âThree.â
âThe INSâll have a field day.â
âIâll need you to babysit from time to time, but I think weâd better cool it, George, until things blow over. I donât want you getting mixed up in all this.â
âKelly ââ
âI mean it.â
She was always firm when it came to her plans. I knew I couldnât change her mind. Iâd miss spending afternoons at the Casa. The place looked like a take-out barbecue joint â had, in fact, been a restaurant. A Pepsi-Cola bottle cap painted on the side of the house was starting to peel, smoky in the shade of four white oaks. Red cedar picnic tables sat in the front yard next to a gravel drive. Newspapers and old fliers, wrapped in rubber bands, nestled in the high, wet grass. It was homey.
One day at the shelter Iâd talked to a thin Latin woman with dark scars on her arms. âWho did this to you?â I said.
âThe Guardia Civil in San Salvador.â
âWhy?â
âThey took my husband. I was passing his picture around in church.â
The beige hall carpet smelled of cat pee and vomit. Wallpaper hung in strips, an old-fashioned dial telephone sat on a cardboard box in the corner.
I pulled a notebook out of my pocket. The woman rocked back and forth on the floor. âTell me,â I said.
âThe men in masks, they force you to worship their whips, their fists. They give them names,â she said. ââThe Enforcer,â âThe Lollipop.ââ She rubbed her arms. âAfter many beatings these words are the only ones left in your head. Your own name has been taken away from you. Youâve betrayed the names of your family and friends. Water hurts, light hurts, clothing hurts. But the hardest pain is not when they hit you. Itâs when they make you stand for many hours.â She squeezed her legs. âAlone, in a room. You begin to hate your feet.â
Water trickled through a pipe inside the wall. âThe body â its own enemy?â I scribbled. I recalled, as a kid, painting the fireplugs at my fatherâs refinery: the soreness that stayed for weeks in my back and arms, the weight of sitting and walking.
Insults to the body .
The woman closed her eyes. The hatred and suspicions that characterize put-downs had begun to hit too close to home. I thanked her for speaking to me.
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I followed Kellyâs wishes and stayed away from the Casa. Most days I worked at the press or just drove around. One afternoon I went to the Shamrock Six, Houstonâs