completely
imagine
youâve already achieved some goal in your life, you
will
win it.â
I can barely say two words in front of a group without swallowing my tongue, but he was chugging along.
âThink about that,â he said. âAnything you want. Money, fame, friends. The universe has
everything
in it and enough of everything for everybody. Like the book says, the difference between where you are and where you want to be is inside you.â
âRight,â I was thinking. âIf the universe is really just a huge Wal-Mart and youâve got unlimited credit, why doesnât everyone
already
have whatever they want?â
I didnât expect him to hear me, since I was thinking and nottalking, but he said, âYouâre probably wondering: If itâs that simple, then why doesnât everyone already have whatever they want?â
Now I added âa little too freakyâ to the list.
âItâs because we hold ourselves back, set up our own failures. Because of bad experiences, bad teaching, or just bad expectations, most of us expect the worst from life, so thatâs what most of us get. The universe
only
gives you what you ask for, so if you think about getting sick long enough, youâll get sick. If you imagine someone beating you up often enough, someone will beat you up.
But
. . . imagine getting a new car long enough and thatâll happen, too. Imagine losing weight or gaining muscle, and you will.â
Yeah? Funny, but I didnât remember asking for the freaking school to cave in, or for All-den to be there to rat me out, or for everyone to hate me. I didnât
want
any of that.
âOur every single thought does not become instantly real. It takes time and effort. Plant the thought, tend the thought, and the event will grow. Our thoughts are either our servants or our masters.â
Ethan picked up the book and shook it at us, like the words in it were water and he could shower us with them. âYou donât have to wonder or guess about any of this. Weâre going to prove it all here, ourselves, by using our
mesmories
to
imanifest
our
craves
.â
Even if I didnât believe him, I was at least half following him until he started speaking in gibberish. Now I was like, âDo the who with what to where?â
âLet me give you an example.â
Please.
âOn the back of the door to my room thereâs a framed print of the
Proverbs of Hell
by William Blake. Heâs this eighteenth-century poet I couldnât care less about, but my mother left it to me when she died. When I wake up, itâs the first thing I see; the last when I fall asleep. I see it so often that wherever I am I can close my eyes and picture it just as clearly as if it were in front of me.â
He closed his eyes.
âRight now I can see the tear in the corner, a splinter sticking out the side of the frame, even the exact shape of a little apple juice stain above the âPâ in âProverbs.â This is called a âmesmory,â a sense memory, something you can remember just as clearly as you can see. When you can picture your heartâs desire as clearly as I can that poster, itâs sure to be yours. Got it?â
Got it. Maybe.
He wrote quickly on the blackboard in neat block letters. âIâve set up a private message board. Sign in with this password, real names only, and please donât share it with anyone outside the Crave. I want everyone whoâs interested to post Cravesâthings you want, but true things, maybe even things you think arenât even possible. Anything, really. Skyâs the limit. Next meeting, Iâll pick one out and weâll work on it together.â
He turned back and gave us a smile like the one on Vickyâs button. âI donât expect you to post your deepest secret desires. We donât know each other that well. But if you want results, take it seriously, and keep it