doing?â I exclaim, scrambling in my chair.
âPost-traumatic stress,â she says definitively. âYouâve got it.â
âWhat are you talking about?â I say loudly. The gray librarian looks up from her post at her desk and callsâfar louder than I didââSecond warning, Missy. Keep it quiet.â
âWhat are you talking about?â I whisper.
âPost-traumatic stress,â she whispers back, leaning in closer to look at my eyes. I swat her away, catching one of her butterfly clips in the palm of my hand. âYou are jumpy,â she says, âbecause of the shooting.â
âMaybe,â I say sarcastically, âIâm jumpy because you are in my face.â
She nods as if to say, Good point . âDid you know him?â she asks after a second.
The odd thing is that I donât have to ask. I know immediately that she means the shooter. âNo,â I say, realizing that for just a second, I hadnât thought about him. âI didnât even see him,â I tell her now. I donât have any idea what he even looked like. I havenât even seen a picture of him. And I never will. I donât want to know. Giving him a face is more generous than I feel like being. I prefer to think of him as a blurred-out entity, like a mob witness.
She nods. âLucky.â
âHow about you?â
âI was outside. Cut class for a cigarette. I missed the whole thing.â
âMust be karma,â I say.
âYeah,â she replies bitterly and tugs at a frizzy piece of hair, pursing her shiny pink lips. âYouâre Daphne Wright, right?â
âHow did you know?â
âIâm psychic,â she says, tossing the book on the table in front of us. A little orange construction-paper bookmark falls out.
For a split-second, Iâm charmed by her. âOh, really? What am I thinking right now?â I smile tentatively, half-friendly, half-making fun of her.
âNot that kind of psychic, silly.â
âI didnât realize there were different kinds of psychics.â
The girl rolls her eyes. âI can tell you everything about you.â
âI already know everything about me.â
We are at an impasse. Do I like her, or do I want her to suddenly come down with a case of laryngitis? Itâs always a toss-up with me. Melissa says Iâm a misanthrope in training. The girlâs eyes move to the open double doors of the library room from where Iâve just escaped. The noise is louder, the sub looks even more harried. Sheâll never make it through the day.
âHow do you know my name?â I repeat.
She points at the freshly printed schedule clipped to the top of my notebook that is sticking out of my backpack. Iâve been carrying it around since the first day. Daphne Wright , it proclaims. âOh,â I say.
The girl slinks down in her chair so low that she looks like a puddle of goo melting. Her earringsâhideous dangly things that look like blue peacock feathersâmove violently as she whips her head, peering one way and then the other.
âWhat?â I ask, growing nervous. Is he back? How could that be?
Sheâs staring at Dizzy and her friends. Theyâve come out of the classroom and are standing a few feet from the paperbacks, just out of our earshot.
âThem?â I ask. âI just had the pleasure of meeting them. Mean girls, huh?â Iâve already written them off. Iâve been to enough schools to spot these kind of girls a mile away. Itâs best to be polite but distant. Never get too close, or theyâll figure out how to torture you.
Dizzy sees me in the chair and waves. She gives some sort of hand signal to the others, and they all began walking toward us. Great , I think.
âShit,â the butterfly girl says as she sits up quickly. âIâm outta here.â She grabs her bag and makes a run for it, a skinny flash