in.
âShould I take it out?â
âTake it out.â
She jerks the handle one way and the other, and free. Stone meal has stuck to the chocolate-greased metal, up to a point. She says, âDeep as this.â
âYou made it worse.â
âWith such a thin knife?â
âMetal beats rock.â
âSo metal made the crack?â
âMy mother, with a pot.â
âWhy?â
âShe took it off the fire, ran, dropped it on the counter and leaped back.â
The orphan finds the stain before I point it out, how could she not, a beet-red splatter on the ceiling, a wildly flaming planet, droplets violently striving everywhere. âI like borscht,â she says. âWith sour cream and pepper. Why did she do it?â
âPressure cookers make her nervous.â
âSo why did she use one?â
âTo save time.â
âDid she get hurt?â
âI told you she leaped back.â
âYou saw?â
âI heard.â
âAnd then?â
âI came.â
âAnd saw?â
âHer hands shaking. She was sitting on the floor.â
âDropped?â
âLegs straight ahead.â
âAnd no one helped?â
âShe didnât want at first but then she let. My father took her hands.â
âWhat did he say?â
âI donât remember.â
âWhat did she say back?â
ââGod damn that pot.ââ
âWith you there?â
âThey didnât see me. Thatâs not her usual language.â
âDid she take it back?â
âShe didnât say one more word. She looked like she had found him after a terrible, long trip.â
âShow me the pot.â
âI canât.â I put out a hand and she gives back our knife. âMy father threw it out. It was archaic and a hazard. Better technology is just around the corner.â
âI could have told you that,â she says, again gazing up. Her chin is bearded with a dab of chocolate. She slips her fingers through her hair; they meet up at the crown, over the damaged patch, to feel it gently, then come apart. âFor a whole week I didnât dream,â the orphan says. âLast night I did. I bit right through a windowpane. Inside was light and outside dark. I bit a hole right through the middle of the glass, black in the middle of the shine, the shape of my mouth. It didnât hurt, it didnât not hurt, I didnât feel any blood running.â
I donât see what this has to do with anything right now. âWe have a big assignment in Leviticus.â
âI donât.â She keeps on staring at the stain, but glassy-eyed, bored sick.
âThe teacher gave it after you got up and went.â
She says, âGave you. But Iâm exempt.â
âYou have chocolate on your chin.â
âSo?â
âYou should wash it.â
She says, âLetâs watch TV.â
I almost laugh at her. Nothing can tempt me before five oâclocktoday. He comes on only once a year. I smile. âOnly after homework. Thatâs my motherâs rules.â
The orphan finger-pats her tough, blunt lock. âMaybe for you.â
âWhat happened there?â
She spins around to push the lid back on the chocolate. âFinish your boring work,â she says. âIf you finished weâd have time.â
âIt isnât boring.â I lay the knife in the sink. She hands me the soft-sided tub, which I return to its home in the pantry.
âBoring.â She licks her thumb, presses it onto the breadboard, then pecks off the coating of crumbs. âThis year thereâs no more story,â she says through speckled lips.
âThere is.â
âNo.â
âYes. What do you call the people in the desert? Exodus they got away and headed out, right? The tabernacle was built to practice for the Future Temple? This year they are learning how to worship in it and