donât tell him what I was thinking. Not that he couldnât guess. âThere was a woman, in the lounge, face down on the floor, blood all around her, a huge poolâ¦â Describing it makes me feel as if I might throw up.
Kit takes a step back, looks at me as if heâs never seen me before. âLetâs get this straight: you went onto Roundthehouses, took a virtual tour of 11 Bentley Grove, which you happen to know is for sale, and saw a dead woman in one of the rooms?â
âIn the lounge.â
He laughs. âThis is inventive, even for you,â he says.
âItâs still up on the screen,â I tell him. âGo and look if you donât believe me.â Iâm shaking, freezing cold suddenly.
Heâs going to refuse. Heâs going to ignore what Iâve told him and go back to sleep, to punish me, and because it canât possibly be true. There canât be a dead woman lying in a sea of blood on the Roundthehouses website.
Kit sighs. âOkay,â he says. âIâll go and look. Evidently Iâm as big an idiot as you think I am.â
âIâm not making it up!â I shout after him. I want to go with him, but my body wonât move.
Any second now heâll see what I saw
. I canât bear the waiting, knowing itâs going to happen.
âGreat,â I hear Kit say to himself. Or maybe heâs talking to me. âIâve always wanted to look at a strangerâs dishwasher in the middle of the night.â
Dishwasher
. The tour must be on a loop. In my absence, itâs started again at the beginning. âThe obligatory kitchen island,â Kit mutters. âWhy do people do it?â
âThe lounge is after the kitchen,â I tell him. I force myself onto the landing; thatâs as close as Iâm willing to go. I canât breathe. I hate the thought that Kitâs about to see what I saw â no one should have to see it. Itâs too horrible. At the same time, I need him toâ¦
To what? Confirm that it was real, that you didnât imagine it?
I donât imagine things that arenât there.
I donât
. I sometimes worry about things that maybe donât need to be worried about, but thatâs not the same thing. I know whatâs true and what isnât. My name is Catriona Louise Bowskill.
True
. Iâm thirty-four years old.
True
. I live at Melrose Cottage in Little Holling, Silsford, with my husband Christian, but heâs always been known as Kit, just as Iâve always been known as Connie. We have our own business â itâs called Nulli Secundus. Weâre data management consultants, or rather, Kit is. My official title is Business and Financial Director. Kit works for Nulli full-time. Iâm part-time: three days a week. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I work for my mum and dadâs business, Monk & Sons Fine Furnishings, where I have a more old-fashioned job title: book-keeper. My mum and dad are Val and Geoff Monk. They live down the road. I have a sister, Fran, whoâs thirty-two. She also works for Monk & Sons; she runs the curtain and blind department. She has a partner, Anton, and they have a five-year-old son, Benji. All these things are true, and itâs also true â true in exactly the same way â that less than ten minutes ago I took a virtual tour of 11 Bentley Grove, Cambridge, and saw a dead woman lying on a blood-soaked carpet.
âBingo: the lounge,â I hear Kit say. His tone sends a chill shooting up my spine. How can he sound so flippant, unlessâ¦âInteresting choice of coffee table. Trying a bit too hard, Iâd say. No dead woman, no blood.â
What? Whatâs he talking about? Heâs wrong. I know what I saw.
I push open the door and make myself walk into the room.
No. Itâs not possible
. 11 Bentley Groveâs lounge turns slowly on the screen, but thereâs no body in it â no woman lying face