stairs, carpeted in beige; chunky dark wood banister. A utility room with sky-blue unit fronts, similar to those in the kitchen. Honey-coloured marble for the house bathroom â clean and ostentatiously expensive.
I click on a picture of what must be the back garden. Itâs a lot bigger than Iâd have imagined, having only seen the housefrom the front. I scroll down to the text beneath the photographs and see that the garden is described as being just over an acre. Itâs the sort of garden Iâd love to have: decking for a table and chairs, two-seater swing with a canopy, vast lawn, trees at the bottom, lush yellow fields beyond. An idyllic countryside view, ten minutesâ walk from the centre of Cambridge. Now Iâm starting to understand the 1.2-million-pound price tag. I try not to compare what Iâm looking at to Melrose Cottageâs garden, which is roughly the size of half a single garage. Itâs big enough to accommodate a wrought-iron table, four chairs, a few plants in terracotta pots, and not a lot else.
Thatâs it. Iâve looked at all the pictures, seen all there is to see.
And found nothing. Satisfied now?
I yawn and rub my eyes. Iâm about to shut down the Roundthehouses website and go back to bed when I notice a row of buttons beneath the picture of the back garden: âStreet Viewâ, âFloorplanâ, âVirtual Tourâ. I donât need a view of Bentley Grove â Iâve seen more than enough of it in the past six months â but I might as well have a look at number 11âs floorplan, since Iâve got this far. I click on the button, then hit the âxâ to shut down the screen within seconds of it opening. It isnât going to help me to know which room is where; Iâd be better off taking the virtual tour. Will it make me feel as if Iâm walking around the house myself, looking into every room? Thatâs what Iâd like to do.
Then Iâd be satisfied.
I hit the button and wait for the tour to load. Another button pops up: âPlay Tourâ. I click on it. The kitchen appears first, and I see what Iâve already seen in the photograph, then a bit more as the camera does a 360-degree turn to reveal the restof the room. Then another turn, then another. The spinning effect makes me feel dizzy, as if Iâm on a roundabout that wonât stop. I close my eyes, needing a break. Iâm so tired. Travelling to Cambridge and back in a day nearly every Friday is doing me no good; itâs not the physical effort thatâs draining, itâs the secrecy. I have to move on, let it go.
I open my eyes and see a mass of red. At first I donât know what Iâm looking at, and thenâ¦
Oh, God. It canât be. Oh, fuck, oh, God
. Blood. A woman lying face down in the middle of the room, and blood, a lake of it, all over the beige carpet. For a second, in my panic, I mistake the blood for my own. I look down at myself.
No blood
. Of course not â itâs not my carpet, not my house. Itâs 11 Bentley Grove. The lounge, spinning. The fireplace, the framed map above it, the door open to the hallâ¦
The dead woman, face down in a sea of red. As if all the blood inside her has been squeezed out, every drop of itâ¦
I make a noise that might be a scream. I try to call Kitâs name, but it doesnât work. Whereâs the phone? Not on its base. Whereâs my BlackBerry? Should I ring 999? Panting, I reach out for something, Iâm not sure what. I canât take my eyes off the screen. The blood is still turning, the dead woman slowly turning.
She must be dead; it must be her blood. Red around the outside, almost black in the middle. Black-red, thick as tar. Make it stop spinning
.
I stand up, knock my chair over. It falls to the floor with a thud. I back away from my desk, wanting only to escape.
Out, out!
a voice in my head screams. Iâm stumbling in the wrong