poems about what a stupid young man he had been. It was hilarious, but at the end, he said something like he was glad they had asked him to read, but it was the saddest thing he could remember doing. He had to be helped to a chair. Late that spring they invited Judith to read, but we were packing by then for the return.
Across the street, there was the Bird in Hand, which was full of worn-out working men, and down a block was the King of Bohemia, which was warm and cozy, always half full of older married couples. The women had learned to drink. We had lunch in there on Tuesdayâs, back in the nook by the aquarium. Across the zebra from the Bohemia was King Henry the Fourth, which was gay and way too small, but they had a little garden. All the men in velvet drinking John Courage, everybodyâs hands above the table, moving. And then down the street, below the fish-market and the newsstand and the doner-kabob shop, was the simplest pub of all, the Rosslyn Arms, which was where we drank, where we met all the American teachers, and where Gordon would get drunk and finger each new necklace Judith woreâthe smashed penny, the Parcheesi tokensâpulling her as close as people get while talking to each other. He was as big as a bear and would always get drunk and offer to âbite her bottom,â but he was harmless. He wasnât a writer. It was in the Rosslyn Arms where I learned to play real darts, in fact, where behind the bar, in one of the three cigar boxes, my best darts sit right now.
I order another bitter from the girl, and I notice sheâs a pretty girl about twenty-six, and I tell myself again: Iâve got to begin noticing women, but by the time she returns with the pint, Iâve begun my catalogue again, going way to the top of the High Street, at the corner of the heath, and Iâm starting with Jack Strawâs Castle. Iâm trying to decide whether or not to include The Spaniards, where Judith and I walked only one day, but we were too late for lunch and the staff was all cranky. I feel a hand on my shoulder. Judith lifts my glass and drains the whole pint until I can see her eyes closed through the bottom of the glass.
âHello, Douglas,â she says. âLetâs eat later.â She leads me outside.
If we were strangers, or acquaintances, or anything less than what we are, whatever that is, I would now ask Whatâs up ?, but we donât talk that way. There is going to be some theater first, I see, as Judith walks two steps ahead of me across the boulevard, through the park, and down the winding steps to the beach. Sheâs wearing a blue oxford shirt under the brown baggy cardigan I bought her in Hampstead. She always wears clothes from the old days when she meets me.
There arenât many people out, since itâs a gray day in February, but there is a brighter band of light on the horizon and a warm breeze comes off the sea. I walk behind Judith and kind of enjoy it; the air feels good and Iâm full of beer. The light over the ocean makes it seem as if there is a lot of the day left. Itâs sunny for brunch in Hawaii. I swing my legs, stepping in every other of her footprints. It feels wonderful to move this way; she can take her time. I donât really want to hear about Reichert or the studio.
Judith walks in a forced jaunt, bunched a little against the weather, her fingers in her sweater pockets.
âYou kind of walk like David Niven,â I say to her back. Iâm suddenly thinking this doesnât have to be a terrible interview; the beer has made me careless. She walks on. I let her go a little farther ahead, and then I follow doing crazy steps: five-foot leaps and then micro-steps, inches apart. Backward steps, duck steps, and then a few real long side steps. Sheâll see this stuff on the way back.
We approach a couple who have committed themselves to a full-scale beach picnic. They are both sitting on a real checked