Prince of the Heavenly Host, by the divine power, cast into hell Satan and all the evil spirits who prowl throughout the world, seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.
I didn’t know what I was saying or what was happening. I still wasn’t sure I heard a thing. No one made their presence known to me. But there was nowhere for a breeze to have come from. If someone was in the room, I would assume they were there to do me harm. Even so, how would they have gotten in?
I needed to open my eyes, get out of this bed, and stand on my feet in case I must defend myself. If only I hadn’t scared myself silly. I couldn’t move; my body was as frozen as an ice cube. How long could I keep it up? Fall asleep, fall asleep. None of this is real, I kept telling myself.
I think I told myself to fall asleep enough times that my body finally responded to the command. After I woke, I no longer felt that weird sensation of someone behind me. My body was more relaxed. I decided it was time to make a move and assess the situation to be sure I was, in fact, still alone. Before I kicked my feet off the bed, I got one last chill that sent shivers up and down my spine.
As I moved about the space, I didn’t find anything new getting in my way. Part of me had hoped, if nothing else, someone was there to deposit some food. Unfortunately, that was a false sense of hope. The cruelty of it sent waves of pain across my abdomen. Nothing in the room changed and no one caused me any harm. I just couldn’t seem to shake the feeling that I wasn’t alone.
Sitting with my back pressed against the wall with my legs crossed in a half lotus position, again unsure if my eyes were open or closed, I started to feel consumed by the darkness and the invisible black shadows haunting me in my cell. Thinking back to what may have happened last night almost set my hair on end again. And then something did happen.
MY EYELIDS SEEMED to be glowing from the outside, kind of like someone waved a flashlight across my face. My eyes were, in fact, closed; I touched them to be sure. There was a shadow at the center of the light.
The pendant on my neck heated as a wave of warmth washed over me. Not like a fever or stepping outside on a hot day, more like the sensation of sliding into a nice hot bath or drinking some of Gram’s tea on a cold day.
A tingling sensation started at the top of my crown. I could feel every hair follicle dancing on my head and this continued to surge down to every part of my body. The overwhelming awareness of my physical entity created numbness. The numbness wasn’t emptiness, more of a weightless sensation. It reminded me of a hot air balloon.
The shadow behind my eyelids began to move into the light and the light into the shadow. My breath was slow and steady, but my pulse quickened as the light started to transform more into the figure of a woman. Before I could make out the details of the figure, I heard her voice.
“Kasha, Kasha.” A quick whisper came at me from out of nowhere in the distinct sound of Gram’s voice. “Kasha, if you can hear me, do nothing, say nothing, and don’t move. I don’t have time to explain the details, and for that I am sorry, but you must listen to me.”
I was in awe, so much so that I couldn’t have moved if I tried. All I could think was if I stirred, I would wake from this dream of my Gram, and I wanted nothing more than to hear her soothing voice.
“They are watching you and waiting for a sign you have transitioned and come into your powers. There are many who seek you for the power you will be able to harness. You must be very careful whom you chose to trust. I am so sorry I didn’t have the time to tell you all I know. I wasn’t sure if you would possess any of the abilities attached to our bloodline over the centuries. It wasn’t until I passed that I was able to see the true spirit residing within you. My abilities were limited, unlike others in our family.
“It isn’t safe for