was a good match. So I donât tell Dre yet that we might have a kidney for him. He doesnât even know I went to see his father. I let the doctorâs office know Terrell said yes. They say they will start the process, whatever that means. We have to sit tight and wait. It shouldnât take too long.
In the meantime I take Dre every other day for dialysis. It helps him feel a lot better. Thereâs no way he can go to school, so I get his homework for him. Last thing I want is for him to fall behind.
We have a lot of time to sit and talk while heâs getting his treatments.
âYou still thinking about college?â I ask him.
âYeah,â he says. âIâm still thinking about it.â
âYou keep those grades up, maybe youâll get a scholarship,â I say.
âYeah, well, we both know thatâs the only way Iâm getting an education,â he says.
âThereâs always the community college. You could start there. Learn some kind of a trade. Then move on up the ladder. Nothing wrong with that.â
But Dre shakes his head. His dreadlocks whip back and forth.
âUniversity,â he says. âThatâs where I belong.â
Dre sees himself as a professor. I donât know where he gets this from. I never liked school much. I certainly never thought about getting a higher education. I was happy just to finally get my GED when I was twenty-six, after almost ten years of being a single mom.
That was also the year I met Ernest and we got married. For a while, things were looking up. Ernest had a good job managing an electronics store. We lived in my little house. Soon Marco came along. We were a real family.
But Ernest had a little problem staying faithful. I donât know for sure how long his affair with that salesgirl was going on. I know one thing: I couldnât ever trust him again, not after she started calling our house. He swore up and down it would never happen again, but by then it was too late.
I can be a very understanding person⦠sometimes. If you break your promise to have your pizza at my house in thirty minutes or less, Iâll give you a second chance. But if you break your marriage vows to me, youâre out the door.
âIâm proud of you,â I say to Dre.
âWhy?â
âFor going to university.â
âMama,â he says, âwhat are you talking about? I havenât even finished high school yet.â
âYeah, I know,â I say. âIâm just proud of you for even wanting to do it. You donât know how much that means to me. All a mother wants is for her kids to do well. And you will.â
âIf I make it through this, you mean,â he says, nodding at the machine.
âYou will,â I say again. âI just know it.â
Then the bad news comes. A few days later, I get a message on my cell to call Dr. Wendellâs office.
âIâm afraid I have bad news,â he says. âTerrell canât be a donor. Thereâs no way.â
My heart falls into my feet. I should have known this would happen.
âWhy not?â I ask.
âWe ask our potentials a list of questions,â he says. âAnd one of those questions is, Have you ever done intravenous drugs?â
âLet me guess,â I say. âHe answered yes.â
âI suppose we should be grateful he told the truth,â says Dr. Wendell. âIf he had any diseases, we would have caught them in the screening. But maybe something else would have popped up down the line, after it was too late. We canât take that chance.â
âDoes Terrell know?â I ask. I wonder how upset he is, now that heâs not getting out of prison early.
âHe knows. The nurse stopped the interview right there.â
I go quiet. Iâm just thinking.
âLinda,â says Dr. Wendell. âAre you there?â
âIâm here.â
âI realize this isnât good