it. He turned his head sideways. Sideways. Like this.â Kim suddenly dropped her head to the side as if she were a marionette and her neck string had been suddenly severed. I found myself dropping my head sideways in imitation.
âBut theyâre perfect,â I said, hoping she wouldnât think I was a lesbian. âIâm sure my boyfriend would love them,â I added, just in case my preferences were in question. âHow dare he. How dare he turn his head sideways. Youâre beautiful ! Youâre perfect. I just look at you and I think âMmm milk.ââ Oh God, now I think Iâve gone too far. I was just trying to be nice, maybe even make a female friend (actresses are notorious for hating each other and hanging out with their male counterparts instead), and now I definitely sound like Iâm coming on to her. But she isnât glaring at me or backing away like Iâm a freak; sheâs smiling.
âReally? Youâre not just saying that?â she says.
I guess she likes freaks so I continued to lay it on thick. âIâm telling you youâre so perfect you make me sick!â I yelled. âYou fucking make me sick!â
Her face lit up like a neon sign, and she immediately wiped the tears from her eyes. She flipped her long blond hair back and held out a soft, perfectly manicured hand for me to shake. âKim Minx.â
âMelanie Zeitgar.â
âDo you like Mexican food, Melanie Zeitgar?â she asked.
âLove it,â I lied.
And so that afternoon Kim and I went out for the first of many margaritas together. Mmm, margaritas. Does the body good. We became fast friends, shopping partners (Kim shopped, I praised and sometimes returned to the stores to steal little tidbits I noticed on my reconnaissance missions), and confidantes. She knows everything about meâexcept for the bit about stealing, of course. We lost touch for a while when I started classes at NYU, but weâve been able to pick up the thread. She was the first person I called when my life exploded on me three years ago, and I was the fourth person she called when she found this great rent-controlled apartment last year. Okay, so the friendship isnât exactly even, but I donât care. Sheâs the only one who couldnât care less about all my little neuroses. But sometimes she can be extremely annoying.
âUh-oh? What?â I whine.
She turns the page of her magazine before answering. Fashion before friendship. âTell me what she said again. Exactly.â
ââMelanie, Iâd like to see you in my office. Can you be here at eight A.M.?ââ
âUh-oh.â
âKim. Stop saying that. Maybe she has a great assignment for me.â
âI doubt it. But good luck.â
âDo you have to be so honest? Whatever happened to little white lies?â
âSorry, Mel. Youâre right. Sheâs going to give you a fabulous job on the Queen Mary. Howâs that?â
âInsincere.â
âIâm sure itâs nothing. Just go in there, smile, and agree with everything she says.â Kim smiles at me by way of example. I smile back. She shakes her head. âYou look like youâre in pain.â I imagine Ray kissing my neck and smile again. âWhoa, way too happy,â Kim says. âDiscount smile,â she suggests. Kimâs favorite thing in the world is a good sale. I imagine stealing a cashmere sweater. âPerfect,â Kim says. âThatâs the smile.
Chapter 3
A fter several agonizing minutes of smiling, I start frowning. Should I really trust Kimâs advice? Kim is a fellow Fifth Avenue Temp. Weâve been employed through them for years while managing our âcreativeâ careers. For Kim itâs modeling, for me, acting. And if youâre thinking Iâm just another flash in the pan who enrolled in a three-year acting program, guess again. I may be only a