right, Miss Showjumper. I hear you didnât exactly cover yourself in glory on the cross country course yesterday morning,â I said, a grin creeping onto my face.
Tash shrugged and smiled, swinging away from the railing. âNah, I leave that up to Eleni. Sheâs our eventing expert.â
Eleni scowled. She can never take a compliment. Itâs like sheâs embarrassed to be so good at three-day eventing. She works so hard and sheâs so talented, itâs a shame that any praise just makes her squirm. If you compliment her horse, though, she glows. I get that; love me, love my horse.
âIf you did more dressage, Tash, your horse would jump a lot better,â Eleni said. We shared a conspiratorâs grin, while Tash just predictably rolled her eyes.
âDressage is for pansies and eventers, no offence. We showjumpers are free spirits, you canât contain us behind little white fences.â
âNo, itâs over, under or crash right through for you lot,â Eleni said.
Iâd just ducked down to begin my careful hand-protecting wriggle through the rails and had to stop for a minute while I finished laughing. I wish I could think of smart things to say as quickly as Eleni does. I never think of anything till hours later, if ever.
âThereâs nothing small about the fences I jump over,â Tash declared. She reached out a long arm, curling her fingers around my bicep to steady me as I slid cautiously between the rails.
âTouché,â Eleni acknowledged. She stepped up and wrapped a hand around my other arm as I emerged from Jinxâs yard. As soon as I was upright they let go. They know just how much help to offer; just how much I can accept without feeling stupid. Again, gratitude rolled over me, making my chest tighten. I blinked, ambushed by the emotional rush and determined not to get soppy. If I got teary my well-meaning friends would have me back at the St Johnâs Ambulance before you could say JRA to have me checked for a brain injury.
âCome on then, letâs go. Iâm starving,â Tash said, jerking her head in the direction of the lunch tent.
As I fell into step between them on our way to eat and they started arguing about the merits of dressage for jumping horsesâ âthe German showjumping team does dressage and theyâve won a gazillion gold medalsâ from Eleni, countered by a darkly muttered ânot latelyâ from Tashâmy headache returned with a vengeance, pounding behind my eyes. I flexed my fingers experimentally, just reassuring myself.
Whenever it was this bad, when my joints grew hot and sluggish, I was always afraid. What if this time the pain didnât ever let go?
Chapter 3
It was lucky Iâd pocketed that pill. It had been an impulse at the time, a tiny white circle of insurance because I was feeling pretty sore and I knew from experience that if Iâm hurting right after a fall itâs going to be 10 times worse the next day. When I edged my aching body out of bed the following morning, with more of those pain-bombs going off in my bones and joints, I didnât muck about. I downed the pill with the contents of the water bottle I always keep beside my bed. Then I slowly gathered my shower things and shuffled out to apply hot water to the outside of my body while the drugs got to work on the inside.
By the time Stacey appeared with her trusty little bum-bag, Iâd loosened up enough to pass her inspection. But I was still bad enough for her to offer me another pill. I repeated my magicianâs trick, knowing I was going to be in a state by the end of the morningâs dressage session and afraid I would be too sore to get any sleep that night. The pill I could ask for the following morning wasnât going to be much help to me during a long and potentially miserable night of aching joints.
As I wiped my mouth, Stacey frowned, her eyes following my hand. I froze, a horrible