blade. Things had to be very bad for Francis to retreat to his sword-making but adding to that his scene in the great hall and Lolaâs desperate request for a late-night audience, Mary knew something was gravely wrong with the king.
âLeave me, Mary,â Francis said, eyes trained on the job at hand. âI need to be alone right now.â
âThen thatâs a problem,â she said with a soft, sad smile. âYouâre a king and Iâm your queen. Neither of us will ever be alone.â
Francis looked up at his wife with confused red eyes.
âIâm so tired,â he said, a moan in his voice. âBut I have such nightmares.â
âI know,â Mary said. She walked around his worktable carefully, sitting beside him on the bench. There were a lot of knives to hand and as much as she loved and trusted her husband, she couldnât help but feel an edge of anxiety. âBut they are only dreams. Why do you want to send your son away?â
âBecause he isnât safe here,â he replied, his expression tight and resolved.
âWe are always in some kind of danger,â Mary tried to keep her voice light but her words honest. It was true, after all. They were the king and queen of France and Scotland, they would always have enemies. âWe decided he was safer on castle grounds, bearing your name. That is why you claimed him.â
âI thought you would be happier with him gone.â Francis still refused to look at his wife. âI thought you would be pleased.â
Mary ignored the pang in her heart. Whatever was wrong with Francis, this wasnât the time to rise to a fight. âI want my godson near me,â she replied. âSo does Lola. And I know that you do too.â
âBut he isnât safe,â Francis said again, his voice breaking on every word. âI canât have him here.â
âWhy?â Mary pressed, taking the stone and the steel from his hands and holding them in her own. âWho would hurt him?â
Francis looked up, his eyes full of fresh tears that he refused to let fall.
âMe,â he whispered. âIâm afraid that I will hurt him.â
*Â Â *Â Â *
Dawn came slowly, broad strokes of orange and red painting the sky outside the castle, the rising sun finding Francis on his knees in front of his fatherâs sarcophagus.
âWhat is happening to me?â he asked the image of the former king. âIs this real? Are you really speaking to me?â
But the stone did not speak.
Francis rubbed his hands over his face, breathing out hard. His knees ached and his head throbbed, but he had sworn that he would not leave this room until he had an answer.
âYou appear to me in my sleep,â he said, pleading with his dead father once again. âYou use maids and nightmares to give me messages but when I come to you, there is nothing? Why do you torture me?â
With an angry shout, Francis pounded his fist into the floor, bloodying his knuckles, but his body was so overcome with exhaustion, he felt nothing. He couldnât go on this way, the dreams were too much. If the roses grew where his father had fallen, how long before harm befell his child, his only child? And if it wasnât his fatherâs ghost seeking revenge that troubled him, how long before his own madness wounded the whole of France?
âEither I am a hereticââhe flexed his hand, watching the blood run over his fingersââeither I have been forsaken by my own god or I have gone mad.â Turning his back to his fatherâs resting place he leaned his forehead against the freezing cold castle wall. âI donât know which is worse.â
âIâve been called both of those things,â a voice said, a dark figure lingering in the doorway. âNeither is preferable. Especially for a king.â
âLucky for you then that you will never be king,â Francis replied