student seemed to be the only people in residence who owned cars. There was a MARTA bus stop on the corner, and here in midtown, everything was accessible. Noreen, however, liked the freedom her car gave her. It was small and old, but it managed to keep going, thanks to the mechanic down the block who charged only a tiny fee totinker with it when necessary. While she made a good salary at the hospital, Noreen still had to cut corners to make ends meet.
Sheâd never lacked for material things when she lived with her aunt and uncle and Isadora, but her life had been emotionally empty. Here, with her few possessions around her, she was at least independent. And if she lacked for love and companionship, that was nothing new. She wondered occasionally if her aunt had minded having to hire a housekeeper and social secretary after Noreenâs expulsion from the family home. Sheâd never had to pay her niece for these services. It would never have occurred to her.
Ramon had moved to a new apartment, she recalled, after Isadoraâs tragic death. He hadnât been able to face going home to the scene of his beloved wifeâs last hours, for which he still blamed Noreen. Sheâd tried and tried to make him listen to the truth, just after it happened. But, maddened with grief and pain, heâd refused to let her speak. Perhaps he preferred the heartless image heâd endowed her with since their first meeting. God knew, heâd never really looked at her anyway.
She recalled with pain her first sight of him, getting out of a stately Jaguar in front of her aunt and uncleâs huge, sprawling mansion. His black hair had shone in the sun. His tall, athletic form in a staid gray suit had made him seem leaner, more imposing. As he entered the house, the impact of his liquid, coal black eyes in a handsome, blemishless dark face had caused Noreenâs heart to stop dead for an instant. Sheâd never known such sensations in her life. Sheâd flushed and stammered, and Ramon had smiled almost mockingly at her momentary weakness. It had been, she recalledpainfully, as if he knew that her knees had gone weak in that instant. He was worldly, so perhaps her reaction was one to which heâd become accustomed. But God knew, amusement had been his only expression. Heâd turned right away from Noreen after the quick, indifferent introduction, right back to his beautiful Isadora.
âDonât think that he noticed you at all,â Isadora had said mockingly that evening, âdespite the calfâs eyes you were making at him. Imagine a man like that looking twice at you!â sheâd added, laughing.
Noreen hadnât been able to meet those demeaning blue eyes. âI know he belongs to you, Isadora,â sheâd said quietly, tidying up after her cousin.
âJust remember it,â came the curt reply. âIâm going to marry him.â
âDoes he know?â Noreen couldnât resist asking the dry question.
âOf course not,â her cousin murmured absently. âBut Iâm going to, just the same.â
And she had, only two months later, with her aunt as matron of honor and one of her set as bridesmaid.
Ramon, courteous to a fault even to strangers, had puzzled over the selection. Two days before the wedding, while Isadora enthused over her bridal gown with her mother, Ramon had paused in the doorway of the kitchen, where Noreen was taking tiny tea cakes out of the oven, to ask why she wasnât participating in the wedding.
âMe?â Noreen had asked, sweating from the heat of the kitchen, where sheâd been sent to make pastries for afternoon coffee.
Heâd frowned at her appearance. âDo you never wearanything except jeans and thoseââ he waved an expressive dark hand ââsweatshirts?â
Sheâd averted her eyes. âTheyâre comfortable for working around the house,â sheâd replied.
She could