werenât coming?â I said, taking a step back when he stopped in front of me.
He eyed me for a long while before answering. âI come and go, when and where I please. Why does Harik the Great know your name?â
I felt as if Iâd been punched breathless. Iâd heard whispers in camp between the miadres . Ama and the others hated him. His name was like poison, not to be touched. It alarmed me to think he might know my name. Jafir was wrong.
âHe doesnât know my name,â I said. âHe doesnât even know me. Iâve only seen him from a distance, when he raided our camp long ago.â I stepped away. âAnd for your information, scavenger, he is not great. Heâs a coward, like allââ I paused, measuring the words on the tip of my tongue, fearing it might send him sprinting away againâor worse.
âLike all of us?â he finished. âIs that what you were going to say?â
Why are we here? I thought. We were ever at odds, and yet our paths kept crossing. No, Morrighan, not crossing by chance. You invited him to come back here. You wanted this meeting to happen. I didnât understand myself, nor all I had been taught to rely on. The scavengers were dangerous to our kind, but I was intensely curious about this one who had shown me mercy eight years ago when he was little more than a child himself.
âJafir,â I replied, saying his name with respect, âwould you like to read?â And then as a sign of truce, I added his own description. âA book of the Ancients ?â
We read for an hour before he had to go. It wasnât our last meeting. The first few continued to be rocky and tentative. Scavengers and those they hunted had no common ground. But here, hidden away by long trails and box canyons, we learned to leave at least part of who we were behind us. Our trust ebbed and grew in turbulent starts, but it was always an unstated agreement that our meetings would remain a secret. If he told anyone, I could die. If I told anyone, I would be forbidden to return.
I never thought it would last. After all, our tribe never stayed anywhere for long. Moving on was our way. Soon we would leave the vale, go somewhere far, and these days would end. But the tribe didnât leave. There was no need to. The vale was well hidden, and we were able to gather and grow without worry. No one ventured there. Our days turned to seasons, and seasons turned to years.
I taught Jafir letters, and from there, words. Soon he was reading to me too. He practiced writing, his finger tracing letters in the dust. âHow do you spell Morrighan?â he asked. Letter by letter, he repeated each one as he wrote it on the ground. I remember looking at the letters long after he had written them, admiring the curves and lines his finger had made and how my name looked different to me than it ever had before.
Over the course of weeks and months, we shared everything. His curiosity was as great as mine. He lived with eleven people. They were kin, but he wasnât sure how most of them were related. Fergus didnât explain such things to him. They werenât important. A woman named Laurida claimed him as her son but he knew it wasnât so. She was Fergusâs wife, but she hadnât come to the clan until Jafir was seven years oldâfrom where he wasnât sure. One day she simply rode in with Fergus and stayed. He had a hazy memory of a woman he thought might have been his mother, but it was only her voice he remembered, not her face.
He asked if Gaudrel was my mother. I explained that she was my grandmother, a term he didnât know. âMy motherâs mother,â I explained. âAma raised me. My own mother died in childbirth.â
âAnd your father?â
âI never knew him. Ama says he is dead, too.â
Jafirâs lips pulled tight. Perhaps he was wondering if my father had died at the hands of one of his own kin.