Mid-Life Crisis Diaries Read Online Free

back.” She stormed out of the room.
    ***
    Back at home, Marsha sat inside their dressing room. She spotted Blake’s army-green coat. Eyes shut, Marsha sniffed and held the coat close to her chest while she wept. How could Blake do this to her?
    Marsha soon retired to her bed, tossing and turning as she tried to sleep. She choked on her cries.
    Sunlight crept in and Marsha dried her eyes. She didn’t sleep a wink. Marsha reached for the picture frame on her night table and traced her fingers on Blake’s smile. You used to say I was your first lady, she thought, lost in sadness.
    Marching down the stairs, Marsha decided that a walk will do her good. She glided slowly as she watched happy couples holding hands. She passed by the boutiques gearing up for spring with their new displays.
    Thoughts of Blake and their wedding entered her mind. She could still feel the confetti the guests had thrown at them as they marched out of the chapel, waving goodbye. Everyone pictured them as the happiest couple. She still couldn’t fathom what was going on with Blake.
    A blond lady walking four dogs stopped beside her. She opened her eyes wide when she spotted Marsha. “Hey, I know you. You’re the Love Guru .”
    Marsha forced a smile as the lady tied the dog leashes to the railing.
    “Can you give me advice regarding my boyfriend? How can I convince him to tie the knot?”
    Marsha exploded into a hysterical laugh. “You believe marriage will make you happy? Think again. He might leave you.”
    Marsha scurried away.
    She called out to Marsha. “Excuse me? What did you just say?”
    Marsha continued to hobble away. If only she knew what I’m going through.

C H A P T E R  4

    M arsha stared at the Chinese signs while men biking with their hats on and Chinese women carrying their children passed in front of her.
    Across the street is Dr. Lee’s shop. She put one foot forward but took a step back. She didn’t know why she felt compelled to see Dr. Lee again but nothing made sense since that day Blake left.
    She caught sight of Dr. Lee waving at her from the balcony.
    Marsha spotted a vendor selling mangoes on a fruit stand and decided to buy some. Perhaps these mangoes will help ease the pain.
    Dr. Lee wore a tight sleeveless white shirt with no bra, matching skinny white jeans and four-inch black high heels. Why does she always look so perfect? If only I had half the confidence she had right now.
    She greeted her with a smile. “I knew you’d return. Come in.” She led Marsha inside and they both settled onto the leather couch.
    “Hot tea?”
    Marsha nodded.
    Dr. Lee poured tea in a cup and handed it to Marsha.
    “I’m not sure why I came, but I’m compelled to confide more in a stranger than someone close to me.”
    “Male trouble, huh?”
    “Yes.”
    “Don’t let your emotions overwhelm you. Take one day at a time.”
    Marsha took a sip of her tea then narrated what transpired. “I’m still in shock. He got a tattoo, drinks beer, dresses weird and is not himself.”
    “Oh my. He sounds like he’s having a mid-life crisis .”
    Marsha gasped. How could I have overlooked that?
    “Therapists can fail to notice problems involving their own marriage.”
    Marsha folded her arms, realizing that Dr. Lee didn’t seem so bad at all. Her compassion is what Marsha needed now.
    “It will be a roller coaster for awhile, but I can assure you, you’ll get over the pain.”
    Marsha pressed her lips together still in denial about her troubled marriage. “But I’m not sure if I can.” Picturing all the happy memories she had with Blake was all she could think of. Not having him beside her was like losing an arm. Didn’t he miss her?
    “Give him his space. One day, he’ll come to realize what a gem you truly are.”
    “As it is, I’m a pathetic failure.” She felt lost without him and couldn’t stand the stillness of the night.
    “You won’t discover how strong you are until you’ve experienced pain,” Dr.