Matthew's Mask [Lords of Hawksfell Manor 3] (Siren Publishing Menage Amour) Read Online Free

his voice rough. “Don’t talk like that.”
    She couldn’t handle this right now. Not after seeing Matthew again and not after hearing from Lily about what the staff still said about her. “Get out.”
    He shook his head. “I don’t want to leave you. I have to go get ready for service, but I don’t want to leave you.”
    “What do I have to do to get you to leave me alone?”
    He groaned and thrust against her palm. “Posy, don’t.”
    “Don’t what?” She opened his trousers and stroked him. He was hot and hard and long, and she felt his strength in his shaft. “Do I have to suck you? Will you leave me alone then?”
    He closed his eyes, biting his lip as he shook. “Posy, please.”
    She released him and placed her hands on his chest. After a moment’s hesitation, she pushed. “Get out of my room.”
    William stumbled back then winced as he tucked his cock back into his trousers. “I was worried about you. That’s why I came here.”
    “Too true, I’m sure.” She glanced down at the straining front of his trousers. “You didn’t come here wanting your cock polished, then?”
    He ran his fingers through his hair, ruining his usually perfect appearance. “I was worried about you! God, is it my fault that the second I’m near you I want you?”
    “Because I’m available, William.” She turned away from him. “That’s why you want me.”
    He put his hands on her shoulders, and she couldn’t bring herself to shrug him off. “I do want you, Posy. All the time. But I had to make sure that you were all right.”
    She faced him again. “Because of the new Hawk?”
    He grew quiet, and she heard her blood pounding in her ears. “Yes, because of the new Hawk.”
    “Did I fuck the previous Hawk, William? Did Mary’s new husband take liberties with me?”
    “No, but he fell in love with her.”
    “Love,” she whispered. Her heart twisted. “Please get out. I have to get ready for the afternoon, too.”
    He nodded. “I’m to act as valet for the earl’s brother.” He stilled. “That seems so odd to say.”
    “Indeed,” she said.
    He dropped a sweet kiss on her lips then left. She closed the door and leaned against it again. She could love William, if she thought for a minute he could believe she was more than an easy tumble. As for Matthew? She didn’t know what he was to her. He was her first lover, a romantic stranger with hot words and quick hands who had taken her virginity and given her a first taste of pleasure. But now that he was living here?
    She felt the clock ticking down on her time here at the manor. The countess already believed she’d slept with the earl. What would happen if she learned the truth of what she’d actually done with the earl’s brother?
     
    * * * *
     
    Matthew sat in the parlor after the family went upstairs. It was passing strange to eat with family, even one that was so new to him. The earl was a gracious host and his wife a graceful hostess. Her third cousin, Mr. Michael Crowley, was a surprise, but it was obvious he felt at home here. He looked very much like the countess, and it was obvious both she and the earl cared very much for him. There was love at the manor, something that surprised him. Smiles easily given, teasing comments bantered over the table, loving looks exchanged. It all left him feeling hollow inside. Like he’d been missing something his whole life. Like he’d never really belong here. His stomach churned.
    “Maybe I’ll dine alone tomorrow night,” he muttered.
    “Did you need something, my lord?”
    He turned to find a footman watching him from the door. It wasn’t William, the very proper one who was to serve as his valet, but a handsome, blond man. “Nothing…?”
    “Cabot, my lord,” he said with a tilt of his head.
    “Nothing, Cabot. You may retire if you like.”
    “Very good, my lord.”
    He stared at the fire. It was a welcome warmth on this chilly fall evening. The manor was beautiful and well-equipped. And