protection of Bride, also called Brigid, mother and/or daughter of the Dagda, goddess of smithcraft, poetry, and healing, who survived the coming of Christianity by turning into a saintâ(I told you, they just wonât quit, those old girls) â and not just any saint. According to lore, Bride was the foster mother of Christ, which makes himâdonât you see?âmy foster brother.
In my lifetimes, I have been called by many names. Or, you might say, certain names have called me. More than one of those names begins
with the letter you know as M, a compelling shape in Latin script, echoing the shape of breasts, mountain peaks, sea swells, the wings of birds spread in flight. And if you take the Latin letter B and tip it on its side, you see that shape repeated. But it was many years before I learned any form of writing or inscription. Raised in the oral tradition as I was, Iâm still not convinced that the written word is any improvement over the spoken. After all, talk never killed a tree.
Meanwhile, despite Fandâs authoritative naming of me, my womb mother called me Little Bright One, and the others soon fell into the habit. And that is how I knew myself in my earliest years.
CHAPTER TWO
WIST YE NOT?
W HAT AMAZES ME ABOUT the time my foster brother stayed behind in Jerusalem playing child prodigy at the Temple is not his nerve or precocious wit, but the fact that nobody missed him till theyâd gone a dayâs journey. Cosmic twins separated before birth, we grew up so differently. Compared to me, he lived among throngs. Also the child-parent ratio was different. Her perpetual virginity notwithstanding, Mary did have more than one child. I had more than one mother. He had a whole country to lose himself in. I had one small island. So my determination to give my mothers the slip and be about my own business required more ingenuity. Oh, I know, I know. He wasnât just being a bratty, worrisome kid. He was about his fatherâs businessâand he didnât mean Josephâs. âWist ye not,ââI love that word wist; thatâs why Iâm using the King James versionââWist ye not,â he said to his dazed, uncomprehending parents, âthat I must be about my Fatherâs business?â
It wouldnât have occurred to me to go about my fatherâs business. He seemed to have matters well in hand. The tides went in and out on schedule, and he often left gifts of whelks among the rocks. Though I had never seen him in the way you understand seeing, he was not invisible in that annoying, omniscient way of some gods I could mention. We were surrounded by his kingdom, TÃr fo Thuinn, Land under the Wave. He was no less than Manannan Mac Lir, god of the sea.
On this point, at least, my mothers were agreed. They loved, of an evening before the peat fire, to narrate my conception. The details varied considerably, depending on whose turn it was to tell the tale. There were always some interruptions and corrections, but, in general, poetic license was granted. A tale was âtrueâ if it was well told.
Manannán Mac Lir was a god who lent himself to invention. He was a night prowler, visiting women in the dark âas the dew visits the earth, making it moist and fertile,â so Fand liked to express it. And he was a shape-shifter. Yahweh with his angel messengers and Zeus with his swan feathers had nothing on my father. See the bone-white gleam of that twelve-point rack of antlers? Thatâs him. Feel a sudden gust of
wind from a rush of wings? There he is again. And that huge white seal slipping from the rock into the sea? Now you see him. Now heâs gone.
In some stories he came to Grainneâwhom the others described with utter lack of envy as the loveliest of allâon the shore, taking shape from sea foam. Sometimes he appeared in the oak grove. In yet another story he entered our round hut, his greatness expanding the walls to