Kya & Xavier: It's Always Been You (Life As We Know It Book 1) Read Online Free

knew my schedule better than I did. That was just my way of letting
him know that he was on his own for the rest of the night although I was sure
he already knew anyway. Lately I had a bad habit of falling asleep early. College
was kicking my butt ten times over so unlike him, I rarely ever pulled
all-nighters. I just didn’t have it in me.
    “You going to sleep on me?”
    “Unfortunately I don't have a coach to fix my schedule for
me.” I gently elbowed Xavier in the ribs and then snuggled closer to him.
    “Everybody can't have that baller’s life.”
    “Exactly! Which is why I'm going to sleep.”
    “Well I guess it's just you and me old friend.” He said
referring to the fact that I was leaving him up alone with the TV as his only entertainment.
    “Night Zay.”
    He leaned over and kissed the side of my face, “Night Ky.”

 
    Xavier Lee
    As usual Kya went to sleep on me so I was up by myself
watching TV. I was used to it though because she rarely ever stayed up late
unless I made her so it was all good. I had been spending a lot of time with
her lately. Partly because I was hiding from Tori which was easier than just
telling her I was done but mostly because I missed being around Ky. Things were
just easy with us and I could just chill and be myself around her.
    Most of the girls I dealt with were more interested in number
twenty two. I could be the biggest asshole to them and they would accept it as
long as on game day they felt like they could be seen with or place some kind
of claim to number twenty two. Xavier didn’t exist at that point, it was all
about the hype for them. Ky didn’t care about any of that and in fact she hated
the attention. All she ever wanted or cared about was me.
    Ky was always there for me even when I wasn’t really there
for her. Well not the way she needed me
to be. She had been there through the worst parts of my life and never once
judged me.   And when I say my worst I
mean absolute worst. She knew all my demons and somehow still managed to care
about me despite them. I suppose knowing that made it too easy for me do what I
wanted whenever I wanted because she was always there. That was something that
I could always count on so I took advantage of it. Not really because I wanted
to hurt her but basically because it was easy to do.
    Girl after girl, mistake after mistake she always let me back
in and as terrible as it sounded her loyalty is what gave me a free pass to not
be the guy that I knew she deserved. I hated myself for that sometimes because
it made me realize that I was more like Johnny than I cared to admit. Well in
some ways that is, because there were lines that I refused to cross. I had never disrespected Ky the way that Johnny
disrespected women by putting his hands on them. That is one promise that I
made to myself and I would never break it, ever!
    I never wanted to be anything like Johnny which is one of the
major reasons why I stopped smoking and drinking. I would never forget the
night that Ky and I were arguing because she had showed up to a party where I
wasn't expecting her to be. I had lied about going but she knew me well enough
to come looking for me anyway. Of course she found me, drunk laid up in a bedroom
with some girl I barely knew. The last thing I remember was her screaming at me,
“You are just like the one person you claim to hate the most. Your father!” She
stormed off in tears with me too high and drunk to do anything about it. That
was the last time I ever got that wasted. To this day I still hear her in my
head every time I get to the point where I'm anywhere near crossing that line
again. I refuse to be a drunk, cheating bastard like my Johnny . So far I have the drunk part under control
but the cheating, not so much. I’m a work in progress but since I’m technically
single I guess I get a pass for that one.
    Johnny was also the main reason why I never got things right
with Kya. I have never told her that because I could