doesnât seem to occur to him what that meansâhow heâs lost the ability to trust good news.
For once, Iâm happy to let him do it. I know what heâll find.
He scrolls down the page. âItâs true.
Whirlwind. Preproducâ
Whoa!â He leans back suddenly. âYouâre not seriously replacing Kris Ellis.â
âSomeone has to.â
He and Dad exchange glances. Even Dad has heard of Kris Ellis.
âCome on,â I groan. âIâm going to be in a freaking movie. Itâsââ Iâm about to say
a hundred thousand dollars,
but stop myself. âItâs two months.â I turn to Dad. âThe directorâs going to call you. Wants you to be okay with everything.â
Dad leans against the counter. He looks tired and confused. I think he has a million questions, but doesnât know where to begin.
âMom wouldâve liked it,â I say.
We mull the words over together. After my first play in elementary school, Mom started taking Gant and me to Sunday afternoon childrenâs shows. Then matinees, as we got older: Arthur Miller, Tennessee Williams, and a bunch of other playwrights whose work I didnât really understand. Summers were for Shakespeare in the Park, which I liked more because we always took a picnic. Dad used to stay behind, though; theater wasnât part of his world.
From the way Dadâs looking right through me, I get the feeling heâs thinking of Mom now. How she booked my first paid acting gigs. Of course sheâd be happy for me.
Dadâs cell phone rings, startling us.
âThatâs probably Ryder,â I say. âI gave him your number.â
He tugs at his shirt collar and leaves.
Gant pushes his chair back. Paces around the room and finallysettles, leaning against the door frame. Arms folded, he looks like one of those moody, rebellious guys from 1950s movies. James Dean, or someone like that.
âThis is really sudden,â he says.
âHas to be. Filming starts soon.â
âSure, but . . .â He glances at the laptop, and his frown shifts to a grin. âAre you seriously starring with Sabrina Layton?â
âNo. She dropped out too, same as Kris Ellis.â
âBummer. Probably not worth taking the role, then.â
Dadâs pacing along the hallway, his uneven footsteps loud on the laminate floor. Heâs hardly speaking.
Gant returns to the table. âIâm going to miss you,â he says.
âItâs less than an hour away.â
âYeah, but . . . youâre probably taking the laptop too, right?â
I roll my eyes. âNice, Gant. Real nice.â
âWell, Dadâs computer is even older and crappier than yours, and I canât run my photo editing software. Actually, itâs kind of selfish of you to take this role.â
I pretend to punch him on the arm.
âY-yes,â says Dad, breaking his silence. âHmm-hmm.â
I wait for the questions to commenceâ
How long is the shooting schedule? How many hours of tutoring per day? Will Seth be home for Christmas?
âbut Dad hangs up.
I join him in the hallway. âY-you can d-d-do it,â he says.
Even with the contract signed, I was bracing for an inquisition. Instead Dad is smiling. We hug, and he laughs, and in this instant, our whole world seems to shift.
Two-thirds of it, anyway. I wait for the remaining third.
Gant is two years younger than me, but has the jaded attitude of an older brother. Perhaps thatâs why things donât feel completely right until he joins usâalmost like heâs the one giving me permission to go.
5
MY ROOM AT THE BEVERLY WILSHIRE Hotel is spectacular. Gant opens the patio doors and stands on the balcony. Dad runs a hand across the designer jackets and pants and shirts in my closet. When I emailed Ryder my sizes, I figured it was for movie costumes, not a new wardrobe.
Dad removes a dark