gesture. âOh. Sorry I brought it up. Okay. Be right back.â
He wished sheâd just tell him what it was that she wanted to talk about. Her proposal. And he really hoped it wasnât to do with sex, although thatâs pretty much all heâd thought about for the last hour. He didnât think heâd be able to tell her no, but it was the wrong choice for him right now.
âThatâs a lot to carry, Iâll help.â
âNo problem. I got it. If you donât mind, maybe you could get the fire going?â She handed him a lighter from her pocket. âThe temperatureâs good, but as the sun goes down it will get pretty cool out here.â
âSure.â He should have suggested that they eat at his house, but he was worried about offending her. More than ever he was curious about whatever proposal she had. Strange that sheâd invite him for a meal when she didnât have a proper kitchen. Not that he was one to judge. There were many times heâd used a hot plate, either in the barracks or at a temporary camp.
She emerged from the house with a pitcher of sangria in one hand and in the other hand she held a plate full of taco shells. Sheâd also tucked a bottle of water under one arm.
He grabbed the pitcher and the water and put them on the table.
âI had to heat the shells up in the microwave. Usually Iâd do that in the oven, but I probably wonât have one for another three weeks, and thatâs if the cabinetmaker finishes on time. His wife is having twins, so itâs probably a little sad that I say nightly prayers she doesnât have those babies before heâs done with my job. Iâm a horrible person.â
He laughed. âYouâre not horrible. You made me tacos.â He meant it. The meat smelled great and he couldnât wait to dig in.
She handed him a plate with four tacos on it. âMy apologies again. Didnât mean to unload on you. Itâs been a day . You were there for part of it, but before that came the plumbing news.â
She took the top off a large tray that had several small bowls. âI wasnât sure what you liked, so there is cheese, tomatoes, jalapeños and some caramelized onions. Oh, and I made guacamole. I left it in the fridge. Iâll get it.â
He loaded up his tacos and waited for her to return.
âThis smells delicious. Itâs been a long time since someone made me an actual meal.â Mostly he ate at a couple of local restaurants or the chow hall on base. The last six months heâd had to remind himself to eat. Food wasnât that important to him. The second he let his guard down, the guilt overtook him.
The muscles in his gut tightened.
No . He had to force the visions from his head. His men were gone. Theyâd never share another meal.
And this wasnât the time.
Focus . He had a beautiful woman sitting in front of him and she was sweet. He could try not being a hard-ass for an hour. And he was still more than a little curious about her proposition.
âCooking is one of the things I do to relax,â she said. âI miss it. I havenât had a kitchen for two months, well, one that had more than a hot plate in it. But enough about that. How did you end up here? What do you do?â
âIâm a helicopter pilot. I fly Vipers and Venoms, and when necessary, Stallions. Iâm teaching Boots studying navigation at the base.â
âBoots?â
âNew Marines.â His COâs order that he develop better camaraderie with the new squad flashed through his head. Brody didnât understand why he had to make friends. His job was to teach these guys how to best do their jobs so they didnât die. Maybe if heâd prepared his other squad more, they would have survived.
His gut tightened again, the wave of sadness culminating in the pain and tension behind his right eye. Why did it always seem that when you cared about