swinging at it. I didnât fit in, perfectly well, anywhere. Not state, not private. Sometimes I wondered whether that had been a factor in any of our many moves.
She balanced on one leg as she unstrapped first one skyscraper heel, then the other. âHon, weâve got a great house, in a nice street, four doors up from a school. What we spend on fees weâll save on travel time, and I wonât have to fret about you while Iâm at work.â
She tottered over on the loosened platforms and kissed my forehead. âDonât worry so much, honey-bun. Itâll give you wrinkles.â
With that she stepped down from her teetering heels and settled with a sigh onto the couch beside me. Her blonde halo brushed against my shoulder. I shifted away from the contact. Howâs a kid supposed to look up to his mum when sheâs so much smaller than him?
She shifted position and swung her legs up onto my lap. âWant to give me one of those world-famous Henry Hoey Hobson foot rubs while you tell me about your day?â
Her feet were toy. And smelly after twelve hours in patent leather. Crisscrossed with ugly welts where the ridiculous shoes had cut into the skin. That had to hurt.
She passed me the jojoba oil that lived beside the couch. The label claimed it was a natural fungicide and excellent moisturiser. I automatically doused both her feet before remembering that I was supposed to be mad at her.
âDamn, that feels good.â The tiredness was leaking through into her voice.
I risked a quick look and noticed for the first time that there were worn patches in her smile. A cold hand squeezed my heart and I ducked my head, concentrating on her feet.
âOnly three days in the job and I already have a couple of prospective buyers for that old house overlooking the river.â She poked me with an oily toe. âYou know the one I mean?â
I nodded. One of our old neighbours had given Mum the listing on her grandfatherâs deceased estate. It had gotten her the job at a flash inner-city real estate agency. She said the house was our âpot of goldâ, but if you asked me, it looked more like something youâd put a match to...
Iâd gone with her to the Open for Inspection on the weekend. A big sign out the front offered prospective buyers the only logical advice it could in the circumstances: âDemolish or renovate!â Very helpful, seeing that no-one in their right mind would consider living in it as it was.
She settled back into the lumpy couch with a sigh. âYour mummaâs going to be a thousandaire by the end of the week, Triple-H. Within six months thereâll be real-estate billboards for Lydia Hoey Hobson all over town. Itâs going to happen, honey-bun. Donât you worry about that.â
She could have saved her breath. I worried about everything. I wasnât sure how much longer she could keep it up. How she could work so hard, stay so optimistic ... After so many setbacks, it was beyond me. It was as if her whole life was a triumph of hope over experience.
She lay still while I worked silently on her poor, battered feet. Then the toe poked me again. âSo come on, tell me, how was your day?â
Her voice had lost its energy now that she was lying down. She was always joking that she was a shark: she needed to keep moving or sheâd die. I didnât want to think of her dying, so I told her that she was more like a fox terrier, running around at a million miles an hour, except when she slept.
I risked another quick glance. She had worked all weekend, left the house an hour before I got up this morning, and arrived home five hours after I had. She looked like she was ready to call it a day. Did I really need to tell her about mine?
I concentrated on working the base of her foot with my thumbs, massaging up and out, pulling on each toe in turn.
This little piggy went to market ... This little piggy stayed home...
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