that Iâm going to sleep in here, not just tonight, but . . . and now Ialmost start crying again, because I donât know how long weâre going to have to stay.
âHey,â says Tilly. âHow tall do you think the Aluthgama Buddha would be if he stood up?â
âI have no idea,â I say, as sarcastic and annoyed-sounding as I can. But she doesnât even notice.
I get up and walk to the window, which is between the two beds; I stare out until I can make my face stop crumpling up. I could probably go outside and walk aroundâthatâs part of why weâre here, right, because we donât want to live in a place where you canât let your kids play outside by themselves? But I donât want to; Iâm almost scared, like I might get lost in the trees. All the green that goes on forever like an ocean.
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Around five, Mom calls out that sheâs going to go over to Scottâs and see what heâs got planned for dinner. âAnyone want to come with me?â she asks. Tilly and I both stare at her, like weâre scared sheâs going to make us. Dadâs finally awake, sitting up, rubbing his eyes.
âIâll stay here,â he says, though Iâm not sure Mom was really inviting him to go with her. Someone has to be with the kids. Or maybe notâmaybe itâs so safe here that none of the rules apply.
Mom sighs. âOkay,â she says. âIâll be back in a few minutes. Just so you know, youâre all probably going to need to pitch in to help with dinner.â
I donât complain, because I know thatâs what sheâs expecting. Once sheâs out the door, the mood seems to change a little bit in the cabin, like weâve all been holding our breath.
I go over to the couch and sit down next to Dad. âSo,â I say. âWhy are we doing this, again?â Iâm trying to make a lame joke, kind of.
Dad looks at me very seriously and says, âBecause we donât like video games.â
I crack up, so glad to have a reason to laugh, and Tilly comes over to join in. âThatâs right, Daddy,â she says. âWe donât like video games; we
love
them. We
adore
them. We
cherish
them.â
âHmm.â Dad looks thoughtful. âSo that canât be it. Is it because we hate TV? And delicious snack food? And using the computer?â
Tilly and I are both giggling. Iâm leaning against his shoulder, and Tilly is climbing up on the arms of the couch to try to sit on his neck, like for a piggyback ride, even though sheâs way too big. âNo, Dad,â I say. âWe love that stuff, remember?â
âThatâs right, we do.â He turns to Tilly, whoâs practically climbing on top of him, like sheâd stand right on his shoulders if she could. âCome on down, sweetie, okay?â
She does, and he hugs us both close to him, one on each side. âI donât know, then,â he says. âWhy
are
we doing this?â
Heâs going to make us say it.
âBecause you only get one chance to raise us?â says Tilly.
âAnd you think this is going to be a better place for our family than Washington was?â I add.
âOh, yeah,â he says, like heâs remembering something important. âThatâs right. Thanks for reminding me.â He kisses each of us on the tops of our heads. I love my dad.
âYouâre welcome,â says Tilly. She pats his head like heâs a dog and adds, âWeâre always happy to help.â
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When my mom comes back, sheâs got Scott with her. He has to duck his head to get his shiny hair through the door.
âGet your shoes on,â Mom says. âLetâs go see the big kitchen.â
âOr come barefoot,â says Scott. âItâs summertime. Gotta toughen up those feet.â
Tilly goes