one with a power jack and an amp reader and snapped it into the coaxerâs line-in.
âThis might take a minute, depending whatâs wrong,â she said. She hopped up on the locker beside her tools and looked up at me. âI could show you the fix, if you want.â
âNo.â Llell cut in. She shot a hard look at me and her voice went high. âI donât think we should be here, Ava.â
I hesitated. They were all looking at me, Soli and Llell and Luck. The words snarled up in my throat, and all I could come up with was a high-pitched âUmm . . .â
Llell spun on her heel. âHurry on, Ava. Weâre leaving.â
Soli snorted and rolled her eyes. âWhatâre you afraid of?â
I paused, darting my eyes from my old friend to the new.
Llell turned back. âAva.â It was one sharp word, but it said so much. Come here , and obey , and choose . I wasnât so girl then, not yet, and because of my odd skin, Llell was the one stooping to be my friend.
I shook my head. âIâm staying,â I said quietly.
Llellâs eyes shot wide. âCome how?â
âIâm staying.â
Llellâs face crumpled, and then went hard and cold. âRight so.â She swept one last look at me and edged out of the bay. I chewed on my lower lip as I watched her go.
âYou sure you donât want to learn?â Soli raised an eyebrow at me.
I backed up a step. âNo, no.â
Soli shrugged and set about prying the casing from the regulator.
âI should clean up Chinnyâs mess,â I said.
âIâll help you,â Luck said.
âMmmn,â Soli agreed, already bent over her work.
âNo.â I accidentally looked at Luck again and pushed my eyes down. This was going too far. âThatâs not menâs work.â
A twitch of confusion passed Luckâs face. He frowned. âIt is on the Ãther . Besides, itâs my fault. I wasnât sâposed to be on this duty firstways.â
âPlease.â My voice rose. âLet me do it.â
I grabbed a pitchfork and a mucking brush and pushed my way through the goats. Chinny stood by herself near the gate, slowly chewing a mouthful of hay.
âSome bad matter, you.â I aimed a halfhearted kick at her. âShoo.â
I started pitching the sopping hay into the big, boxy methane digester at the side of the paddock, studiously ignoring Luck. Modrie Reller said the methane digester would churn dung, old hay, and whatever else we slopped into it down to a tank in the shipâs guts, where it would rot away. Then the methane coming off the rot would turn to fuel for powering lights or raising the pneumatic lift, whatever the ship needed. A footstep scuffed behind me in the hay. I froze.
âHere.â Luck eased the brush from under my arm. âAt least let me hold that while youâre clearing up.â
I nodded, face and arms hot, and went back to my work.
âUm . . .â Luck slapped the brush against his leg absentmindedly and looked up at the rafters, where a pair of sparrows nested. âHow longâs the coaxer been bust, then?â
I hefted another forkful of wet hay into the digesterâs mouth. âHalf a turn.â My words came out a grunt.
âAnd your Fixes donât have it up yet?â
âNothing wrong with our Fixes.â I stopped pitching hay and glared at him. âItâs not Priority, is all.â
âI didnât mean it bad.â He squatted next to me and pushed the mucking brush across the milk-damp floor. âSoliâll have it up. Donât worry.â
âWill you stop cleaning!â My voice came out shrill. I slapped a hand over my mouth.
Luck looked at me as if Iâd bitten him.
I dropped my head and my voice. âIâm sorry. I mean, please, so, donât trouble yourself with it.â
Luck laughed. âDid you just call me so?â
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