off the birthday trail, but when I was in the bathroom investigating a new pimple, she knocked on the door. âDoyou think your dad would want you to skip your birthday?â
Itâs an extreme presumption to suggest what a dead person might want. If I had died, I wouldnât want my dad to celebrate his birthday one week after.
4
For a week I stayed out of school. Then it was spring vacation, so that was one more week.
My schoolâs called Cobweb by everyone except my dad, who always asked, âHow are things at Touchy Feely?â Youâd think heâd like my school, because itâs into the arts. The brochure says, âWe emphasize the arts,â and students get music appreciation and art every year, including pottery in the tenth grade, field trips to every museum in New York City, plus matinees at the ballet and the New York Philharmonic. But my dad said, âYour mom should dumpyou in public school, not namby-pamby land.â
âDad doesnât like Cobweb,â I once told her.
She didnât answer but studied an order form. ââIf possible, lilacs.â Where am I supposed to get lilacs in winter? Carmen,â she called to her assistant, âDid you tell them weâd send lilacs?â My mom owns a flower shop, and thatâs where we were at the time. She started snipping rose stems. âYour fatherâ¦â
Whenever she says, âyour father,â as opposed to âyour dad,â sheâs having negative thoughts. Opinion, not fact, but opinion based on years of observation, which practically makes it fact. âHeâs not paying for it,â she said at last.
âWhy should he if he doesnât like it?â
Iâve been going to Cobweb since kindergarten. Every week the school holds a meeting, its word for assembly, about world awareness. At the last one a doctor spoke about all the orphans in Africa who had lost their parents to AIDS. The purpose of these meetings is to raise more sensitive humanbeings, but all that sensitivity didnât stop Sukie Jameson from bragging about her breasts or kids from staring at me when I returned to school.
I stared right back. What I donât want is pity. What I donât want is someone checking me out to see if Iâm sad or to see what a person with no dad looks like. Perhaps they expected a mark on my forehead, like an outline of a man with a line through him, kind of like a traffic warning sign.
Jenna was late. I opened my locker and stashed away the books I didnât need, and gave the glares to anyone who looked my way. I wished Jenna had been here early. I wished I wasnât the one waiting. We always share an apple before classâwe pass it back and forthâand play the game Whereâs Waldo?
Waldo is James Albert Fromsky, DDS. We call him Waldo because weâre always wondering where he is. We added the DDS to his name because he has big front teeth. I know that doesnât logicallyfollow, but it happened in a fit of giggles at four in the morning after weâd licked an entire package of raw Jell-O off our fingers. Now that heâs kissed Jenna, I suppose she knows where he is because he probably calls her on her cell and tells her. I guess itâs new stuff all around. Correction: Now that heâs kissed Jenna, we both know where he is because, at that very second, he was walking with her to our lockers. They kept bumping into each other accidentally on purpose and laughing about it, until Jenna saw me.
âFrannie, hi.â
âHey,â said James.
She took the apple from me, took a bite, and passed it to Waldo James. He sank his big front teeth into it.
âIâll see you at lunch,â said James, returning the apple. He headed off down the hall. He has a very unusual way of ambulating. He lopes. His gait resembles that of a wild animal in Africa. Possibly a gazelle.
âBye-ee,â Jenna called to James as she passed the