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been when he played football in middle school, but he was still magnificent. He unbuttoned his jeans and slid them down, but in his haste to reach Leah he tripped over them and knocked them both to the bed. He landed with a thump on top of her.
    “That was not exactly the sexy act I was going for. Sorry about that. I feel like an overeager teenager about to have my first time.”
    Every time was like the first time for us, Leah thought. It was always special. The real first time was nearly six years ago on her birthday. She had turned fifteen and Alex was sixteen. He surprised her with a trip to Atlantic City. Using one of his many fake IDs, he booked a room at Resorts Casino. Leah had been reluctant to go because she knew he really could not afford this, but she didn’t want to disappoint him. He was so happy to be able to give her this gift so she could not refuse it, refuse him.
    She lied to her parents and pretended she was spending the weekend at her friend Gloria’s house. Her parents did not seem concerned, but rather relieved to have Leah out of the house. They never questioned her about her plans.
    Leah and Alex hopped on a bus from their town of Lincroft and travelled to Atlantic City. They walked along the boardwalk hand in hand. Alex bought Leah her favorite carnival food, a funnel cake, and he won her a couple of large stuffed animals by winning the water balloon game. The two of them faced off in several games of whack-a-mole, and Leah came out the winner. It had been such a perfect day.
    After dinner, they went back to the hotel. The room had double beds, but Leah had no intention of sleeping alone that night. They had been making out for years, but had always stopped before they went too far. That day, however, they both wanted and needed more.
    Alex had insisted that he hadn’t brought her there to seduce her. Leah assured him that she wanted nothing more than to seduce him. They made love that night. They were so young and had little clue about what to do, but once they figured it out, they quickly mastered the art. They spent all night in each other’s arms enjoying their newfound closeness.
    Leah had never felt so complete or alive. She felt like she was home and, despite all of their problems throughout the years, that feeling never changed.
    “Are you sure you want this?” Alex asked as he looked down upon her with a grim expression on his face. “After last night, I would understand if you didn’t want this.”
    After last night, Leah didn’t expect to want this again, but she wouldn’t tell him that. Besides, right now, she wanted nothing more. Alex looked so stern and serious, like he was expecting her rejection and bracing himself for her stinging words.
    There would be no rejection tonight. “I can tell you want this,” Leah said as she reached down and grasped his hardness.
    His features softened as he smiled. “I always want this.” He kissed Leah, erasing all doubts as they made love. Yesterday was forgotten, at least for now.
    An hour later they ended up in the tub bathing each other and making love. This was much different from the previous night when she bathed him after a drug binge. Today, they washed and loved each other.
    Leah had a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach that this time of bliss was coming to an end. She could sense Alex was starting to withdraw from her, or rather withdraw from the drugs. His body was trembling ever so slightly, but she could feel the difference in him as his tension heightened. Cravings. They were getting stronger as each minute passed.
    She held onto him even tighter, pulling him into the shelter of her body as she wrapped her legs and arms around him. Too afraid to let go, but knowing she couldn’t hold onto him forever.
    “I wish I deserved you, Leah. I wish I was less selfish so I could let you go and you could have a man worthy of your love. I hate hurting you, but I don’t know how to stop.”
    Leah rested her head in the crook