innocence broke it.
âWhoâs that, Mimi?â His eyes were so like Lindiâs. âShe looks like the other sister in the picture above the fireplace. The one you told me not to mention around Granddad.â
Caroline flinched.
Sethâs blue-green eyes, the color of Ameliaâs, too, flashed. âDonât worry about learning her name. She probably wonât be around long enough for you to get used to using it.â
Caroline and Honey had inherited their motherâs dark brown eyes. Caroline frowned at the thought of her mother and pushed yet another memory out of her mind.
Amelia shifted the baby to a more comfortable position. âFirst, letâs see why sheâs here.â
âPlease...â Caroline whispered.
Her father snorted. Then the tough, old codger scrubbed his face with a hand hard with calluses. âCome to rub our noses in her highfalutin jet-set lifestyle.â
She lifted her chin. âYou donât know anything about my life.â
âWhose fault is that, girl?â
Heâd yet to say her name, Caroline couldnât help noticing. As if he wanted no part of her. Her insides quivered. She wrapped her hand around the cuff of her left sleeve.
Seth crossed his arms over his plaid shirt. âThereâs two kinds of people born on the Shore, Max, my boy. Best you learn now how to identify them both.â
Caroline gritted her teeth.
âThose who donât ever want to leave...â
She knew if she didnât get out of here in the next few minutes, she was going to implode into a million, trillion pieces.
âAnd those, like my runaway daughter.â Seth speared her with a look. âWho canât wait to leave and who never return.â
âUntil now, Dad. Carolineâs come home.â Always the peacemaker, her sister Honey. Far more than Caroline deserved from the baby sister sheâd abandoned.
Caroline examined the set expressions on her familyâs faces. What had she expected? What else did she deserve?
âShe never returned after her mother died,â Seth growled. âNot for her sisterâs funeral. Not during Maxâs chemo. Not after the storm almost leveled our home.â He clenched his fist against his jeans. âNot for a wedding. Or a birthday. Not even a postcard, much less a phone call.â
And Caroline suddenly understood that nothing she could ever say would erase the damage sheâd inflicted. Nor wash away the hurt of the past. This... This illadvised, ludicrous attempt at reconciliation was for naught. She spun on her heel.
âDonât go,â Honey called.
âLet âer go,â Seth grunted. âLet âer run away like before. Itâs what she does best.â
âDaddy... Stop it,â barked Amelia.
Caroline wrested the car door open and flung herself into the driverâs seat. Whereas sheâd found mercy and forgiveness in God, with her family thereâd be none of either. She jerked the gear into Drive.
In a blur, she fishtailed onto Seaside Road. She pointed the car south and drove until the shaking of her hands wouldnât allow her to drive any farther. She pulled over on the other side of the Quinby bridge and parked.
Her shoulders ached with tension. Spots swam before her eyes. She leaned her head on the headrest, and struggled to draw a breath as her throat closed.
This had been a mistake. A terrible, perhaps unredeemable, mistake. She felt the waves of the darkness sheâd spent years clawing her way out of encroaching. Like an inexorable tide, ever closer. A headache throbbed at her temples.
Her breathing came in short, rapid bursts. Hand on her chest, she laid her forehead across the steering wheel. Willing the anxiety to subside and the blackness to erode.
But the waves mounted and towered like a tsunami. Cresting, waiting to consume her whole. To drag her under for good this time into the riptide of blackness.
God. Oh,