mean it?
The funeral people provided âlight refreshmentsâ for what Mrs Donna called the wake. Weird! So quiet. The whispers guests made wouldnât wake up any dead person. They thanked me for âthe cuppaâ which I hadnât organised. Offering curried egg or shaved ham (since when did pigs shave?) sandwiches saved me having to say important stuff like, âDid you know if my gran had another life?â
Maybe someone there did know more about my gran, but I didnât know who to ask or what to say. Besides, they treated me as the left-over grandkid, as if I were about six and feeling grown-up because I was allowed to hand around the sandwiches.
âAre we looking for an envelope?â Luke opened the back door, which then slammed behind us.
âProbably.â I had no idea. No labels on the keys. Not even colour tags or purple nail polish like I put on my second Hedge High locker key
âOr a computer file?â suggested Luke. âThatâs what Iâd look for.â
Since Gran went hi-tech only a few weeks ago, the will was more likely to be in a drawer. Anyway, it had to be witnessed and you couldnât do that on a computer. I held up the keys. âTry the locked drawers first. Letâs see which keys fit.â
Checking for important documents and valuables is normal after a death, Mrs Donna says, but itâs creepy going into an empty house, which still has a feel of the owner. I donât believe in ghosts, but thereâs still a sense of Gran about the place thatâs really hard to describe. Itâs not a smell, just a flavour of her clinging to the rooms. Her furniture. Her colours. Her mess. And a sense of her personality. I donât mean a ghost or anything spooky, just her.
For a moment, I wondered what Iâd leave behind if I died. Would there be a sense of Zoe anywhere? Mum and I never lived in the same place long enough for any house or flat to be âinfectedâ or even affected by us. Even on the farm where we house-sat for the owners, we were very temporary and the ownersâ belongings were still around.
âSometimes old people hide jewellery under the mattressâ¦or in the freezer,â suggested Luke.
âUncomfortable to sleep on, or wear!â I say. âCool!â
Gran was
not
the worldâs best housekeeper. Iâd always liked that. She didnât fuss. But thatâs also why I had to live with Lukeâs super-organised mum. Since Luke trained for the same club, that made the pick-ups and drop-offs easier. Very different women. While Lukeâs mum recycled everything, fast, Gran was a bit of a hoarder. There were newspapers in piles. Old envelopes. I checked them all. Empty. And stacks of canvases against the walls of the hall, with one painting hanging.
âHey, isnât this the picture of you? The one where you had to sit still for hours?â Luke called out.
âTwenty hours.â Thatâs when I used to dream of playing hockey for Australiaâs top womenâs team to fill the time. Iâd get the only goal in the final minute of the second half and everyone in the international crowd would cheer. Iâd be on the TV sports channel. But all I got was eye-ache from having to stare at a corner of the room and not move. You wouldnât think it was so hard to do nothing. Being an artistâs model was not for me, either. So I wouldnât try and get work experience with an artist, especially a portrait painter. Been there, done that.
The picture was crooked. You know how some people canât bear crooked pictures? Luke is one of them. So he tries to fix it.
Trying to balance, one foot on the sofa arm, Luke reached up towards the portrait, wobbled and accidentally knocked âmeâ off the wall. Crash! The painting fell on its corner frame, which splintered just as Luke wobbled back the other way.
âLook out!â Off balance, Luke put his foot heavily on