the operating room cold and smelling like ammonia. When the doctor bent down he could see a drop of blood caught in her blond eyebrow. Well hello Miss Ann. There was a saw making the same screaming it did in shop. Wait, he wanted to say, hold up, but her face came down, the drop of blood like a bug, a roach hidden in spaghetti. He tried to talk but the air was sweet, even sugary, a licorice musk of rubber, and then there was nothing but space, floating, no stars, just a dark, bottomless night. Welcome to the Delta Quadrant.
âMute it,â someone says, and Crest does. Heâs already taken his pills; maybe thatâs it. This doesnât happen every night, just some. He always looks for reasons but never finds any, like heâs being controlled by some alien force, like googly old Tom Paris. Fuck.
Itâs just Bean.
The commercials go on too long, so they know itâs the end. When it comes back on, Crest remembers. Itâs not The Doctor, itâs BâElanna who saves everyone. She kisses Tom and his true personality comes back and kicks the alienâs ass right out of his mouth. The Doctor makes up some fancy explanation that the other ones need Tom to keep living, so they all get better, all at once. The green ghosts join up in ablob and go out into space. The special effects are weak, and everyone laughs. Crest is wondering about Vanessa, if a kiss from her would make everything all right. Before, he would have said more than a kiss, but now he thinks: yes. He should call her tomorrow.
Some of the girls stick around for a preview of next week, the new season, then everyone leaves during the credits. Itâs a school night, but still heâs disappointed. Janelle French waves. âKeep ya head up, baby.â
The ten oâclock news comes on, the drive-by the top story. He knows the place, Aliquippa Terrace. There was a dance there years ago, in the spring. Itâs another Bean and me story, a fight over a stolen coat, and Crest doesnât even get into it, just squashes that mad stuff, shoves it back where it belongs. What the fuck. Even if he had someone to talk to he wouldnât say anything. Whatâs there to say? In the paper they said he was the fourth teenager to die in East Liberty that week, like it was some drug shit. It made it sound like it was Beanâs fault. And then nothing, just a little thing in the obituaries. Crest didnât even get to go to the funeral. Still hasnât been to see the stone Miss Fisk bought him. Hasnât even talked with Miss Fisk, said heâs sorry. Soon. Got to, you know?
The door swings open, almost hitting him.
âAy,â U says, in some old street clothes, corduroy slippers.
âSâup.â
âWhereâs all your little girlfriends?â
âShowâs over,â Crest says. âPops go to bed yet?â
âHeâs out on the couch.â
They sit there, Crest in his chair, U on the wall, watching the news. Pirates won; Kevin Young plants one in the stands.
âGo âhead, K.Y.,â U says, and Crest smiles with him. Heâs so clean itâs hard to believe. Quit everything, not even beer anymore. Back in the day theyâd sit here and pound down Iron Citys. Had a fly rap with the ladies, decked-out Impala he used to cruise Highland in, stylin threads. Thatâs all gone, and whatâs in its place is something Crest doesnât understand. And Crest in his chair; itâs the same, he thinks. Theyâve changed. Where theyâve been no one can go. Itâs like theyâve come back from different planets and theyâve got nothing to say to each other, or maybe theyâre speaking a completely different language. Maybe theyâre both fucked up. Maybe Bean got off easy. (No, thatâs cold.)
âU, man.â
âHunh?â
âWhatâs up with Moms and Pops?â
âTheyâre just fighting.â
âNaw, man, itâs