she had, but another, more selfish side of himself hoped that she remained here in Everlost, so he might see her again someday.
âLook,â said Charlie, âMaryâs already leaving.â
Sure enough, Nick could see the
Hindenburg
in the distance, rising up to the sky.
âI should have stayed there by that tree,â Nick said. âThen sheâd have to face me.â
âWouldnât work,â said Johnnie-O. âIf she saw you there, sheâd never get out of that ship.â
Johnnie-O was, right, of course. Still, Nick longed for the moment they came face-to-face. It wasnât just about seeing her frustrationâit was about seeing
her
. Being close to her again. In spite of everything, he still loved her. It made no sense to Charlie or Johnnie-O, but it made perfect sense to Nick, because he understood Mary more than she understood herself. She was a victim of her own righteous natureâa slave to the order she tried to impose on Everlost. If he could, Nick would open her eyes to the truth of it, making her see that she was creating far more harm than good. Then, he would be there to comfort her in that moment of revelation, when all she believed about herself crumbled before her. Once she understood what was
truly
right, Nick had to believe she would embrace it, and together they would free as many souls from Everlost as they could.This was the Mary he loved. The Mary that
could
be.
Each time Nick arrived at one of her traps, and freed one of her snagged souls, he hoped for that moment of confrontation, where her anger would be undermined by the love he knew she felt for him. But she never came forward to face him. Instead, Mary always left without affording him the dignity of a proper slap in the face.
âSheâs heading northwest,â Charlie said. âDâya want to follow her again?â
âWhere are we?â Nick asked.
Charlie looked at his map. âSomewhere in Virginia. East of Richmond.â
This was the farthest south theyâd ever beenâbut there were Afterlights who Nick had come across, who spoke of things even farther south than this. Rumors. Things that could not be believed in the living world, but in Everlost, anything was possible. So Mary would not face himâand now he suspected she never would without a full-out war. There was no question her soul traps were all about gathering up an army.
Fine, Mary,
thought Nick.
If thatâs what you want, then Iâll play.
âHead south.â
Charlie shook his head. âCanât. I havenât charted any tracks south of Virginia. Why dâya wanna go south anyway? Nothing there but the Everwild.â
Nick grunted in frustration at the mention of it. âThatâs all I ever hear! Everwild to the north, Everwild to the west, Everwild to the southââ
âHey, itâs not my fault no one knows whatâs out there!â
âAnd to the Afterlights there,
weâre
in the Everwild.â
Perhaps the living world had finally connected coast-to-coast and around the world, but Everlost was a new frontier. It was just like the days when America was still the New World, and no one knew what breathtaking vistas and unforeseen dangers lay over the next ridge. Perhaps the unknown wouldnât have been so daunting if they had an entire crewâbut unlike Mary, Nick hadnât been interested in collecting followers. His job was to get rid of them, which made it hard to maintain more than just the barest of skeleton crewsânamely, himself, Charlie, and Johnnie-O. It was time to change all that.
âCome on, Charlieâletâs tame the Everwild! Weâll chart the rails, and mark the deadspots on the way!â
And although Charlie was reluctant to travel to places unknown, Nick knew he was tempted. There was a certain excitement in breaking away from the familiar, and shattering old routines.
âWeâll need to look for a finder