off.â
âThatâs the way I like it.â
âIâve heard that about you. I think youâre going to fit in just fine, Paulâand whatâs more important to you, I think weâre going to fit in just fine with you.â
Spalter was a bit of a bullshit artist but Paul rather liked him. He made a gesture with his drink.
âChristmas coming up fast,â Spalter said. âWe wonât really be getting back into gear until after the first of the year. Childress and I both think it might be a good idea if you spent your first couple of weeks just relaxing, getting to know Chicago a bit before you plunge into the office routine. After the holidays thereâll be a pile-up of income-tax work and you may not have too much time for familiarization. Anyhow, take the holidays off, find yourself a house, get settled in, get to know our town a bit. Thereâll probably be several Christmas and New Yearâs partiesâIâll keep you posted. You can report in to work on Monday the sixth. Howâs that sound?â
It gave him more than two weeks; he agreed to it with suitable gratitude.
Spalter sat forward, elbows on knees. âStop me if Iâm out of line. But naturally weâve heard a little about why you decided to move here. Do you mind talking about it?â
âNot any more. But why go into it?â
âThe place is full of rumors. I think you can understand that. Itâd be a good idea if we could put a lid on the gossip before people start looking at you as if youâve got two heads.â
âWhat gossip?â
âFor instance theyâre saying you went to pieces.â
Paul managed to smile.
âYou donât look to me like a man whoâs gone to pieces.â
âItâs a dreary story. All too commonplace.â
âYour wife was mugged, I gather.â
âMy wife and my daughter. They were attacked in our apartment. My wife died in the hospital. My daughter died two months later.â
âAs a result of the attack?â
âIndirectly.â He didnât elaborate. Carol had been institutionalized: catatonic withdrawal. In her mind she had fled from recollections too horrible to face. Sheâd become a vegetable. Heâd watched her retreat: the steady terrible escape from reality until sheâd collapsed into the final trance, unable to talk or see or hear or feed herself. Death had been, perhaps, an accident: she had choked on her own tongue and had been dead nearly half an hour before the nurse discovered it.
âDid they apprehend the muggers?â
âNo.â
âChrist.â
Paul drained his glass and set it down gently. âEsther and Carol didnât have any money with them, you see. Three or four dollars, that was all. The muggers got mad at them because they didnât have money.â
âJesus.â
Paul met his eyes. âThey gave them terrible beatings.â
Spalter looked away. âIâmââ
âNo. Maybe Iâm the one who should apologize. I told it to you that way for a reason.â
âTo prove that you can face itâthat you havenât gone around the bend.â
âThatâs right. There are things you have no control over. To me itâs as if they were both killed by an earthquake or an unexpected cancer. Itâs in the past. Iâve got my grief but weâve all got sorrows to live with. Either we carry on or we throw in the towel. Iâm not the suicide type. Do you go to the movies?â
âNow and then,â Spalter said indifferently.
âIâm a Western nut. The rituals are relaxing, I find. In every other Western thereâs a lineââYou play the cards youâre dealt.ââ
âAnd thatâs what youâre doing.â
âThereâs really not much choice,â Paul lied.
Spalter brooded into his empty glass. The waiter brought fresh drinks and Spalter signed the