why?â
Donald Sandusky put his arm around Rickyâs shoulder. âHe came by the lot. I think he wanted to talk to you. He was standing there watching and the car careened out of control. I think Philip thought it was part of the stunt. He didnât move, Ricky. Hell, maybe he froze. Everyone is crazy right now, so until we can piece together what happened from rational eyewitnesses, letâs just call it a tragic accident. I told Philip he might as well leave because you werenât here, but he said time is money and insisted on staying. You know me, I had to relate to that and the budget. Jesus, Ricky, did your brother ever think about anything except money? Iâm sorry, this is no time to be talking about money. My point was, we were prepared to wait another hour, figuring neither you nor Ted got the message we left for you last night, but then with the clock ticking I decided to go ahead with the stunt. Iâm sorry, Ricky, I wish there was something I could say, but there isnât.â
âI gotta go withâ¦â
âNo, you donât have to do that. Besides, the cops want to talk to you. Thereâs nothing you can do now. When did you get the message?â
âI never did get it. Ted called and picked me up. What the hell are they blasting the siren for now? Did anyone call Roxy?â
âNo. We thought you would want to take care of that, being family and all. I wasnât sure if Roxy came with Philly this trip or not. As soon as you finish with the cops, you better tell her before she hears it on the news.â
âShe came with him. She never letsâ¦let Philly out of her sight. At least thatâs the way it usually is. Sheâs either at the house or the hotel. When they come for just a day or so, they stay at the Beverly Wilshire instead of opening up the house.â
Ricky walked away. He needed to sit down. He needed to think. He needed to puke. What he really needed was a drink . He knew heâd never, ever touch alcohol again. Tears rolled down his cheeks. He made no move to wipe them away.
It seemed like a long time later when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He turned and looked up to seeTed Lymen towering over him.
âThis is all my fault, Ricky. Itâs not something I can make right either. I donât know what to do, what to say.â
âItâs no oneâs fault, Ted, so donât blame yourself. Where is it written that we have to check our messages at night? They could have given us a wake-up call. Itâs not like they havenât done that before when a shoot was canceled, then rescheduled. Itâs Phillyâs fault. Donât you understand, itâs his own fault? Why do you think he always managed to show up for the action scenes? He wanted to be part of it. He loved the action stuff.
âListen, drop me off at Phillyâs hotel. I donât want Roxy hearing this on the radio or television. She might need me toâ¦I donât knowâ¦just drop me off, okay?â
âSure. Christ, Ricky, Iâm sorry.â
âI know, Ted, I know.â
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He was always awestruck at the hotel where the rich and famous gathered to pay a thousand bucks a night, sometimes more, for a room. Philly loved staying in one of the cottages at the Beverly Wilshire. Usually he booked in advance to make sure he got the same one. Philly had always been a creature of habit.
Ricky walked slowly down the path that led to the little villa and knocked on the door. He wished heâd brought his sunglasses. When there was no answer, he knocked louder, then took two steps back to wait.
She was wearing one of the hotelâs fleecy white robes, her hair wrapped in a thick white towel. âPhilip went to the studio,â Roxy said coolly.
âDo you mind if I come in? I have toâ¦we need to talk, Roxy. Donât worry, Iâm not going to attack you.â
âI mind very much if you come in. Tell me