spoke.
âHey, baby,â I said again waiting for him to respond.
He walked by gawking at me asking, âWhatâs for dinner?â
âYou canât speak. All you can ask is whatâs for dinner?â
âHey, Monica. Whatâs for dinner?â he responded tersely.
âDid you have a bad day at work?â I asked, noticing his obnoxious mood.
âLetâs just say it wasnât the best day,â he answered. âNow, are you going to answer my question?â
I stopped, trying to get some reprieve and said, âI didnât cook.â
He frowned saying, âWhat do you mean you didnât cook?â
âDonât you remember, weâre supposed to go over to your parentsâ house for dinner tonight?â I reminded him.
He closed his eyes and sighed in frustration. I knew from his reaction he didnât feel like going there. Especially since he said he didnât have the best day. Hell, I understood. I worked today also. All I wanted to do after this workout was take a shower and crawl in my bed to relax for the rest of the evening.
âYou still could have cooked,â he spat.
âThe last time I cooked and we had to go over to your parents for dinner, you got upset because I prepared food, knowing we were going there. So now I donât cook at all, and you telling me I should have? You need to make up your mind,â I said smartly.
âI donât have time for this,â he murmured as he turned to walk away from me.
âWhere are you going?â
âIâm going upstairs to get ready like you should be doing instead of wasting your time working out to that CD. All youâre going to do is fix a big bowl of ice cream right before bedtime, so whatâs the use?â
His face was void of a smile. He was serious, and it kind of hurt my feelings. I knew Devin was not happy with my weight. He was one of the reasons why I was working out in the first place. I tried to play it off like I always did and commented in a nonchalant way, âI can work out and eat my ice cream too. And for your information, its frozen yogurt, which is healthier for you.â
âNot half a gallon at a time,â he replied, picking up the mail from the table behind the couch and flipping through it.
âI donât eat an entire container, and you know it,â I said now doing squats. Groaning and trying to talk I said, âI donât see you pulling yourself away from drinking beer every chance you get. Ever heard of beer gut?â
Devin looked down at his stomach patting it.
âYou donât see a beer gut here, do you? My beer hasnât put weight on me but that ice cream, biscuits, cakes, pasta, and whatever else you can get your hands on has. Iâm the same man you married seven years ago. But look at you. How much weight have you gained?â
I was not about to answer that question as I stopped and turned to Devin, trying my best not to burst into tears. He didnât need to explain to me how fabulous he still was while he thought Iâd fallen by the wayside. Hell, I was still a very attractive woman who was going through some things right now. If he only knew, but right now, I couldnât tell him.
âHoney, you didnât have to take it that far.â
âAll Iâm saying is you are doing this for nothing. In a month, those workout CDs are going to be shelved with the rest of the DVDs we have. Hell, we have a workout room in this house that you never utilize.â
I turned back to my video and started doing side kicks as I said, âThanks for your support, Devin. I donât know why you always feel the need to put me down.â
âItâs called motivation. Somebody has to tell you the truth.â
I stopped again, turning to him.
âMotivation, hell. Motivation is telling me to keep up the good work, or honey, you look great. Anything is better than what you are telling me now,