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wouldn’t let me go, and didn’t talk either. He rocked me, he shushed me, he rubbed my back… He was soothing me, and I felt actually cared for  and I hadn’t felt this way since before Mitchell passed away. My body didn’t want him to let me go, I didn’t feel so alone for this one moment. I knew I didn’t really mean anything, and the pity things makes me feel worse, but just this one time. Just once I wanted to feel cared for, loved. Even though this wasn’t that at all, I just wanted to pretend while I was actually in someone’s arms.
                  Dominic pulled back and ran his thumbs across my cheeks, drying my tears. His smile looked sincere. Real. He studied my face, looking back at forth between my eyes, I forgot I was still crushing him by still sitting on his lap. “Here, let me get off of you, before I hurt you.” I told him and as I started to move myself, Dominic kept a tight hold on my hips. “You are fine sitting right where you are Ivy.” He said softly however I got the impression that when he decided something, the decision has been made. So I felt strange. I mean what do I do? I took a deep breath, and felt myself relaxing again. Actually, for the first time since coming to this hell school. “I guess I just had a lot of built up frustrations or energy or something. Thanks for the pity hug.” I said fake laughing again. Dominic wasn’t laughing. He just kept an unreadable look on his face, and shook his head. “It’s not a pity hug Ivy. Why do you think that?”
    I am in blissful shock at first. Then reality hits me. “Because you don’t talk to me in school. Your friends make fun of me, making me feel bad. I just figure that if I was even someone you would consider a friend, you would I don’t know…” I shrug. “Look, its doesn’t matter. You made me feel better. I really appreciate it. And before you ask, don’t worry, I will keep this a secret.” I fake laugh. “I don’t want to give you a bad reputation, besides everyone will know you just felt sorry for the homely girl.” I say with a fake smile. I pull myself off of him and this time he let’s me. I pull myself together and step out of the bleachers. I look back to Dominic and he still is facing the school, sitting in the same place. “Thanks again for giving me some time to feel… to feel like I matter to someone.” I stay for a minute, and nod and walk away. Well, at least I have some good memories of Dominic. Those should get me through until we pick up and move again.
     
     
     

Chapter 2.

Dominic
    In Memory of Mitchell’s Date Night.
     
     
                  I stayed under the bleachers for awhile after Ivy left. I can’t believe what an ass I look like to her. I try brushing it off, like it’s her problem but really, it’s not. It’s me, playing the game everyone else always does. It’s not right, I should know better and I feel like a complete jerk.
                  I keep thinking back to the message Ivy kept playing over and over. I feel so bad for her. Her birthday, celebrating under the bleachers with a voice mail from her dead brother. She’s been her a few weeks and all everyone does is makes her feel bad. I don’t know. I mean, maybe it is just pity. Maybe I don’t feel anything more than sorry for her. But I didn’t need to add to her misery. Yeah, I have seen Lena being all bitchy to her. I just let things roll off and don’t give a fuck what people think. I just figured most teens now a days probably think the same way. I let out a deep sigh. Well, I guess I am contradicting myself. If I really didn’t give two shits what people think or say, why then haven’t I stepped in to help Ivy out. I mean I am sure I could said something, but I suppose it’s easier to just walk away and keep out of the problems people deal with. You know, it doesn’t effect me, why get myself involved. I apparently have a much different upbringing that Ivy has. I