gonna tell me your story, or whatever fib your parents told you? Or do I guess right that your super-uptight mother has never told you anything?â
I sigh and shine my light on a sparkling droplet clinging to the end of a mud-colored stalactite. Even my best friend and fellow adoptee Raul has no idea what a huge hole in my heart exists from not knowing much else aboutmy birth parents. For as long as I can remember, Iâve fantasized about finding themâmaybe because Iâve never felt that Iâve fit in with my adoptive family. Iâve never even been sure my adoptive mother loves me. But precisely because Iâm so obsessed with the issue, Iâm determined to hide it from Raul. Still, maybe itâs time to tell him the one stupid story I was given.
âDad told me I was born in Cochabamba. My birth mom was a teenage beauty queen. She got herself pregnant thanks to some married doctor. Her family didnât want the scandal. The doctorâmy birth fatherâwanted nothing to do with the whole thing.â
Thatâs why Iâve concocted a dream
,
a story I like better. Except it keeps turning into a nightmare
.
âSeriously?â His headlamp beam, frozen on my face, blinds me to his own facial expression.
I nod and glance at the coffin-size opening between slabs of rock that weâve promised to tackle today. âThatâs what Dad told me when I was, like, twelve, and thereâs no way anyone in my family wants to talk about it, especially my mother, as you bloody well know. I donât want to ask questions. I donât want to get anyoneâs nose out of joint.â I gesture to the crumpled-up printout sticking out of his pocket. âSo stop digging up this shit off the Internet.â
âNo effing way.â
I stare at Raul, who I can see now is staring bug-eyed at me. Weâre still sitting cross-legged in our cramped rotunda, our breaths coming out in pockets of steam. âWhat?â
âMy parents told me the same thing. The beauty queen and doctor line!â
âDid not. You told me a whole different story.â
â âCourse I did! No way was I gonna âfess up to a lame-sounding tale like that. Beauty queen? Sucky.â
I shine my light on a colony of daddy longlegs on the walls. âYouâre not making that up?â
âYouâre not making up yours?â
âNo.â Sweating and rattled, I turn and enter the space ahead of Raul, wriggling on my stomach, hands ahead of me like Iâm swimming. Raul has recently decided this isnât a dead end as the rest of the caving community believes. The reason weâre here is that last weekend, he crawled in, reached the end boulder pile, hammered on it with a crowbar until he felt air flow, then shoved a few more stones away. He thinks that we, being smaller and skinnier than adult cavers, can now carry on to what may be a new exit. Iâm barely in, though, when hands close over my ankles and Raul jerks me all the way back into our conference room.
âStop, Andreo. You gotta think about this one. So both our adoptive parents got fed a line. A big sales pitch that some black-market dude thought up. Itâs perfect, donât you see? This babyâs got beauty-queen looks and doctor brains, and no birth parents who are going to ask for it back. The perfect history. Maybe all six hundred babies he collected money for came with the same damn story.â
I lean forward and blow a long breath of steam into Raulâs face. âGuess that means the beauty queens in Bolivia keep pretty busy. Or maybe we have the same beauty queen mom and doctor dad, which makes us brothers.â My sarcasm drips with the same ping as the stalactiteâs droplets.
â
Ha
! Not possible, âcause Iâm way better looking than you, not to mention I was born just four months after you.â
âDrop it, Raul.â I reach out and grab the printout from