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“Just—fuck.” He paced a few steps and then returned to right his chair before sitting back down. He leaned forward and studied me intently for a few moments. When he finally spoke his voice was rougher than I was used to hearing. “You do know how fucked up everything you just told me is, right? You do know that those cops and Devlin—fuck—probably every man you’ve been with has taken advantage of you. You were sixteen fucking years old, Alexa, that—well—that shouldn’t—none of it should have happened.”
    My cheeks heated. “And I suppose if none of that had happened I wouldn’t be fucked up in the head and a porn star? Is that what you think? Because this is the last time I’m going to tell you—I LOVE WHAT I DO! I FUCKING LOVE IT!” I screeched the last part at the top of my lungs. My throat ached slightly when I was done.  I slumped down into my chair and wrapped my arms around myself. “There’s nothing wrong with me, David, nothing.”
    “Who are you trying to convince, me or you?” he whispered, causing my heart to triple in time.
    “Fuck you, David—or should I say Davy Jones? Fuck you!” I stood and my foot caught on the edge of the chair, causing me to tumble forward onto the plush carpet. “Fuck you, David,” I sobbed as I pulled myself to my feet and ran head first into Josh entering the room. I couldn’t really see his face through the onslaught of tears dripping down my face.
    Confusion was interlaced into every word as Josh spoke. “What happened? Are you okay? I thought we were going to do the interview?”
    “Interview’s fucking over,” I snapped as I skirted around him and hightailed it out of there.
     

 

Chapter Five
     

     
    ~David
     
    “You want me to break everything down for you?” Josh asked.
    But my thoughts were still on my conversation with Alexa and how upset she’d become because of it. I waved him off. “It’s all right. I’ll get it.”
    “You sure?”
    “Yes!” I snapped before struggling to regain my composure. “Sorry, man, I’m just on edge. Things got…intense before you got back. I need some time to regroup.” Josh shrugged and left without another word.
    The revelation of Alexa’s past relationship with Devlin Saint had my mind reeling. The fact that she didn’t realize how he’d taken advantage of her—how all those men had taken advantage of her— fuck . All right, so maybe she really enjoyed sex. I believed that. Maybe she was even a borderline nympho, but that didn’t excuse Devlin from his actions towards her. Alexa was so fast to defend her choices but I’d found a gaping chink in her armor—love. I’d seen the soul deep pain in her eyes when I’d mentioned it on the plane and I’d recognized the denial and confusion when I’d told her that she’d been taken advantage of. She kept spouting off how she loved the adoration she got from being a porn star. She’d told me she loved the power she felt, the specialness… It had only taken me a few days to figure out Alexandra James’ deepest, darkest secret. She just wanted to be loved and accepted. She fucked on film for money because she thought that was the only way she could get it. The problem was, she was starting to doubt that reality. I’d seen that in her eyes too. The worst part— God help me —I wanted to save her from herself. My little adolescent crush had officially morphed into something a hell of a lot riskier. I now had real feelings for, not porn star Alexa, but for the woman underneath the persona, the woman who used to go by the name Andy.
    I knew what I needed to do. I needed to pack up everything and get the hell out of Dodge as fast as humanly possible. Of course, there was no way I was actually going to do that. You see, men may think with their dicks, but we’re led by our hearts. Yep, I was completely screwed.
     

 

Chapter Six
     

     
    ~Alexa
     
    I lay in the middle of my hotel bed, curled into a tiny ball. I was pissed; I was