⦠umm â¦â I pointed vaguely behind some trees. I needed the loo. I must have done that involuntary lean to the side that gave it away.
Paul chuckled. âFind yourself a spot behind a tree and dig a little hole. Cover it in sand. Easy. Happens to us all, you know.â
âRight ⦠I ⦠yes.â I padded off, my face flushed, his gorgeous smirk bright in my mind.
When I returned he had moved back to the fire and sat with a stick, looking into the flames. His skin glowed golden and his eyes shone.
âGood night then,â I called.
He turned to look. âGânight, Callie Frobisher.â
I headed to the shelter but then remembered myself and glanced back over my shoulder.
âAnd thank you,â I said.
âFor what?â
âSaving my life.â
He gave me a soft smile then looked back to the fire.
Three
Surprisingly, I did sleep. My entire body seemed to sink through the earth. But it was a chaotic, confused sleep, filled with nightmares. I was drowning but it was in a bottle of gin. I was flying, then falling, then up again. Faces from the plane raced through my dreams. The calm-voiced pilot, the woman sitting beside me, her hands grabbing me and not able to hold on, the panicked cabin crew. I woke screaming, unstoppably and desperately.
âShhh, shhh, itâs all right, itâs all right, youâre safe.â
That voice again. If I could cling to that voice alone, Iâd be safe.
Paul was kneeling beside me, his hand on my arm. I put out a hand of my own and gripped onto him. I could barely get a hold, his arm was so large and solid.
I took slow breaths to steady myself. âSorry, sorry. Bad dream.â
âYeah ⦠me too.â
I glanced up at him. He was so controlled, so calm, but he had been through the same. I managed a faint smile. He returned it. âYou OK?â
I nodded. âThank you.â
âI found some limp bacon and managed to fry it up over the fire. Come and have some. Itâll do you good. Thereâs a stream over there too. Fresh water. And look what I found â¦â He tossed an airline freebie toothbrush and toothpaste at me.
I caught them and grinned appreciatively. âIâll go and wash.â
As I approached the stream, something dug into me through my jeans pocket. I reached in, took it out, and smirked at my discovery; my packet of contraceptive pills, intact and almost full. Theyâd survived a plane crash and a near-drowning. Iâd barely had need for them recently, but by force of habit, I popped the next one out and swallowed it.
After splashing in the cooling water gratefully and giving my teeth a thorough clean, I headed back to the fire. Paul handed me some bacon on one of those little airplane trays. âThanks.â It tasted remarkably good.
âOrange juice?â
I laughed and took the small carton. âYouâve thought of everything.â
âOnly the best, madaarm ,â he exaggerated, giving a mock bow.
We sat and ate contentedly for a while. With him, I could forget the trauma.
âHave you got anyone else worrying about you at home?â I said, regretting it immediately, but unable to stop.
He glanced at me curiously. âYou mean like a wife? Girlfriend?â
I nodded, not looking at him, trying to appear as casual as I could.
He shook his head. âNope.â
I was stupidly relieved but hoped I hadnât annoyed him by asking. His answer had been very brief. But he seemed relaxed enough and soon followed up my query. âHow about you? Boyfriend?â
I smiled to myself. âNo and yes.â
âNo and yes?â
âWell, itâs complicated. Weâre not together at this precise moment, but I sort of promised to go back to him when I got back to England.â
âWhat the hell does that mean?â he frowned.
âWe split up a year ago after four years together.â
âWhy?â
I tutted.