A House of Cards: Deconstructing Ethan Read Online Free Page B

in a while. It was something that I couldn’t really understand, but I didn’t want to analyze the feeling too deeply. Looking slightly higher, I saw that he had soft features, relaxed and good natured. His soft brown curls were captured under a bright blue Chicago Cubs baseball hat and his grin was almost infectious.
    “Welcome back, can I help with anything?” The boy called from the porch and Jayden waved him over.
    “Can you get Ethan’s luggage and take it up to his room?”
    Jayden asked him and he hurried to help.
    “Connor, this is our very good friend, Ethan.” Lexi told him with a soft secret smile. “Ethan, this is Connor, our tenant and new friend.” I could see that she was trying not to describe their relationship exactly because of the listening driver, but she didn’t want Connor to think that she considered him just a boarder. I found that to be oddly compelling.
    I greeted Connor shyly as he extended his hand to me and wished for the quiet solitude of my new, albeit temporary, home.
    My routine at Lexi and Jayden’s house was the same as it had been at mine. I spent the first several weeks alone in the room they were having me use. At first, I had tried playing the music at its highest volume, but I found that after a while it wasn’t as satisfying.I don’t know what had changed, but the need to be screaming had subsided. Instead, I switched to meditation, trying to focus my mind. Sitting on the floor, trying to find my chakra didn’t really help either. It could also have been the authors of the books Stephen had forced upon me. As a licensed psychologist and tenured professor at my Alma matter, I considered him a relative expert on the subject. Unfortunately, my psychological problems weren’t exactly text book in nature.
    Unfortunately, I found myself distracted, unable to concentrate on my breathing because my mind kept going back to the sounds coming from the room below. Connor seemed to be getting a real workout, as I could hear the sounds of the paddle and his cries clearly through the inadequate soundproofing. It didn’t take long for me to remember that Jayden had asked Connor to ready the room above the playroom. I’m sure that he never imagined I would be able to hear every whimper from their beautiful responsive submissive.
    I hadn’t spent a lot of time with Connor since I came to stay with Jayden and Lexi, but he seemed like a nice enough guy. He was tall, taller than me, maybe six foot three, with a swimmer’s build and brown curly hair. His brown eyes and good natured expression made me feel at ease with him. It was strange because I didn’t feel at ease with many people.
    I noticed, as his cries came through the floor again, that they had apparently missed an area of the ceiling around the light fixture. The sounds tormented me, reminding me of my time with Jayden in my own playroom.
    Even though he looked as though he was going to faint as he stood naked in my playroom for the very first time, he was every bit as beautiful as I had imagined him to be. Everything from the sculptured lines of his chest to the soft curve of his buttocks drew me to him in a way I did not fully understand. I had never been attracted to a man before – ever. I didn’t want to be attracted to one, but every time I looked at him something inside me felt… I couldn’t describe it … connected? In place? Like plugging in a lamp with the power switched on. There was electricity, there was light. I had to discover what it meant.
    I had told him that we were there to assess his potential as a sub, but we were really there to assuage my curiosity about the attraction I felt for him. As I stood behind Jayden and watched him achieve a full erection merely by my proximity, I thought maybe I had a similar effect on him. I explained the basics of BDSM to him and gave him a safe word for the assessment. If he couldn’t make it through without using it, there was no point to continue.
    I paddled him