concern Abby saw on his face. How wonderful it felt to have someone worry about her, even for a moment. âIâm not your problem, Cade. Iâll figure out something.â As if she hadnât tried. He didnât need to know that, although heâd probably guessed she was out of options.
âMax said you were a social worker.â
âI am.â Abby leaned back, closed her eyes and smiled. âThe day I learned in third grade that not every kid had parents like mine was the day I decided I was going to be the one to help kids find the best parents they could. Itâs a job I love. Iâd still be doing it, too, if the government hadnât cut back and laid me off.â
Abby could feel his sympathy, could see it in the softening of his baby-blue eyes. The rancher was big and comfortable andânice, she decided, choosing the simple word. Cade was genuinely nice.
âIâm sorry,â he murmured.
âIâm sorry, too,â she said, trying to disguise the sourness that sometimes bubbled inside. âThere arenât any less children who need help. And there are even fewer workers to handle all the cases. Butââ She shrugged. âWhat can I do? I was out of work and I couldnât find another job, no matter how hard I looked.â
âAnd then you learned you were pregnant.â Cade looked straight at her. âThat must have been a frightening time, to be alone, without a job, knowing youâre going to have twins. I wish youâd told me when I called. I would have come to help you, you know.â
âI do know.â Touched, she reached out to brush his hand with her fingers, to comfort him. âBut I felt I had to handle things on my own.â
Abbyâs heart melted as she watched Cade helplessly rake a hand through his very short black hair. His lean, chiseled face had lost some of its harshness, though the lines around his eyes and full lips remained and the cleft in his chin deepened with his frown.
âItâs okay, Cade,â she murmured.
âIt isnât okay at all. Max would never have allowed you to handle this alone.â His voice tightened, dropped to a low growl. âIâm so sorry I wasnât here for you, Abby.â
âItâs not your fault. Itâs not anyoneâs fault. Itâs just a problem I have to figure out.â She was glad their server brought their meals just then. Maybe eating would ease the strain that was building and help them both avoid awkward, useless moments of regret. She scrounged up a smile. âI havenât had a turkey dinner in aeons,â she said, licking rich gravy off her fork.
âChristmas wasnât that long ago.â Cade paused, lifted his head and stared at her. His pupils widened. âYou didnât have Christmas dinner, did you?â He closed his eyes and groaned. âOh, Abby.â
Sheâd made him feel guilty again. She knew because she carried her own load. But she didnât want Cadeâs guilt. So what did she want? Because Abby didnât want to explore that thought she set down her fork and reassured him.
âActually I did have Christmas dinner, Cade. Iâve been volunteering at a kidsâ shelter and they served a lovely meal.â She chuckled. âBut I didnât have much time to enjoy it.â
âWhy?â Cade crunched on a pickle as he waited for her to explain.
âOne of the kids ran away, so we went looking for her.â Abby liked the way Cade chewed slowly, appreciating the nuances of flavor in his food. âSearching took most of the day. By the time we found her, I was too tired to eat. Anyway, everything was cold.â
She picked up her fork and chose a square of dark meat. Fork midway to her mouth, she blinked and paused, suddenly uneasy under his scrutiny. âWhat?â
âCan I ask you something?â He waited for her nod, forehead furrowed, his left hand, the