one lying on the table, clenching and unclenching. âYou spoke of giving up Maxâs, er, your babies?â
Abby swallowed the lump in her throat and nodded.
âButâyou canât!â he protested, his voice sounding loud in the almost-deserted dining room. His eyes narrowed and his mouth tightened into a grim line as he spoke in a lowered tone. âAbby, you cannot possibly be considering giving away Maxâs children!â
âDo you think I want to?â she gasped as tears welled. âThese are my children, part of me.â She set down her fork, no longer hungry. Emotions rose through her like a tidal wave but she forced them back in the struggle to make him understand. âThese children are the most precious thing in my life. I would do anything,
anything
ââ she emphasized ââto give them the best life they can possibly have.â
âThen why in the worldââ
âThe best life,â she repeated softly through the tears filling her throat. âMaxâs children deserve that. But homelessness, lack of money, a life on the streetâthat is not the best life for them. Yet, at the moment, thatâs all I can offer them.â She shook her head. âNo child deserves that. I have to at least consider foster care.â
âLack of money?â he said, honing in on her words. âBut wonât Maxâs military benefits cover everything you need?â
âI havenât received any.â
âWhat?â Cade stared at her in disbelief. He shook his head. âWhy?â
âThe military says he never informed them he was married, never filled out the forms. He was also behind on paying his insurance premiums, probably because of the down payment we made on the house,â she said with a sad smile.
âBut itâs been months sinceââ Cade clamped his lips together.
âSince he died, I know.â She sighed. âI sent them a copy of our marriage license, but they say that until they are able to verify its authenticity or legality or something, I canât receive any funds. Thatâs why I didnât have enough to pay the mortgage or power bills or...â Tears erupted in a flow Abby couldnât staunch. She bent her head and let them fall, ashamed of her weakness but utterly weary of fighting.
Cade fell silent. After she regained control, Abby peeked through her lashes and found him staring at her, his blue eyes brimming with anger or perhaps disbelief? When he opened his mouth, his voice emerged in a squeak of protest that Abby shushed by reaching across and grabbing his clenched fist.
âItâs true,â she assured him.
âI know youâre not lying, Abby.â He drew his hand away as if he didnât like her touching him. He leaned back and thought it over for several moments, then jerked his head in a nod. âItâs just that I never heard of the military withholding benefits when...â
âWell, thatâs what theyâve done.â Abby sighed. âI think it might kill me to give up my babies, even for a short time,â she told him. âBut I have to face the facts, and thatâs a choice I might have to make if I canât give them a home, food, safety. I have no intention of failing my children.â
As I did Max.
Cade studied her for several long minutes. She knew something had changed when his broad shoulders went back and determination welled up in his blue eyes. He reached across the table, his hand closing around hers, squeezing tightly. Abby could only stare at him as the rough calluses on his skin brushed hers and wonder what the rush of emotions across his handsome face meant.
Was Cade Godâs answer to her prayers?
âYou have another choice, Abby,â he said in a clear, firm voice. âYou can come to the ranch and stay until the babies are born. Thereâs plenty of room. Mrs. Swanson, our housekeeper, will