hits her body,
just right. I’m not staring. Just admiring the
uniqueness as the sun compliments the arch in her back. Excuse me.
Yeah. That’s my... Wand. And it is, being
mesmerized by your body art. Not today. My wand can explore you at another
time. You quench the inner thirst of my desires.
I’m here looking at her. I’m
staring deep into her eyes. I long for her. To live, to
have, to hold, and to keep forever in my arms. I’m NEVER letting
go. Her accomplishments will be celebrated. I take upon myself to aid her
in any area of need, including any of her failures. For her, anything is
worth suffering for. Even the word by definition, suffer, isn't suffering at
all when it comes to enduring anything with her All experiences with her,
whether good or bad will be considered a blessing. For you see, I could
never fail in loving her unconditionally.
She completes me. Most certainly through all eternally. From finances to
romances, she has the highest order of attention from me. The divine creator
clearly made her to astonish me. From the beginning of my day, she is my
focus. She is the driving force of my energy. I long and wait for
her to be along my side as my bride. I promise, I'll only confide my deepest
confessions to her, for she is my love lesson. My teacher. My healer. My study. My buddy. My closest friend, even
beyond my end. In these simplistic words, I’m trying to say…...
No. I am confessing that my love for her surpasses every man ever known to her.
Will she spend the rest of your life with me? On this day, will I ask her
to marry me? (Oh... I slipped off into a dream in between a daydream and it
seemed all too real while we we're laying here...
Wait... What happened, what's going on...? I'm opening my eyes to see her
crying... So I lean over and kiss her forehead.
Chapter 12: See in you the way
I do
What’s wrong? I asked. But she
couldn’t speak beyond her tears. She curled up into a ball a cried even
harder. I wrapped my arms around her as she wept. After some time she
finally said, "Why? I’m not as pretty as all those other women. Why are
you still here with me? Shouldn’t you be leaving now? You barely even know me.
Please leave. Please." I said, "I’m here because I choose to spend my
time with you. I most certainly won't leave now. I'm here, I'm here for
you." She replied, "Just drop it. I know how this works ok. This
isn’t real. You were just caught up in the moment. We just messed around this
weekend. I get it. Now I think you should go." I responded, "What!
Baby, don't stereo type me. This is real to me. I'm here. Yes, this isn't
normal, people don't do this. Let me ask you two questions. Do you believe in
love and do you love yourself?" She paused to wipe her tears then said,
"Yes. Of course I believe in love. But no.... I
don’t think love is for me. I'm not capable of love ok!!!" Then she burst
into tears again.
Chapter 13: The Intervention
I held her tighter as we now
stood in the bathroom door. I said, "Listen. I’m still here. I
got you. Here, take this towel. Baby, please wipe your face. Take off all
of this makeup and allow me to see your beautiful face. There, wash your
eyes. Now look. Look in the mirror. That's you. You’re so
beautiful. It doesn’t matter what I say. Can you see it? Do you see it?
That’s you. You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful. Say it with me.”
She’s still crying. “Say it. Wash your eyes again. If it takes all day,
I'll stay until you say to yourself. Say it until you mean it. You’re
smart. You’re amazing. Close your eyes. “She closes her beautiful brown
eyes. “Think of what you see. Open your eyes again and again until you
see beauty again. You've always known it. Beauty doesn't fade
away. LOOK at you. It’s ok to cry. We have enough towels to dry your
eyes. You’re beautiful. I will be here for as long as you will allow