and how I wished sheâd slammed open the back door and demanded to go with me to Augusta instead of that Noni girl. But Mayâd never been the demanding type, unless it came to peaches, which she wouldnât touch unless I peeled all the skin off for her, or the color green, which she always called dibs on when we used my paints together, only letting me use it when she was done. She was always making me run out of green.
Mama came in full of sighs, putting a hand on my head. âIâm worn out. Think Iâll lie down for a spell, but I may fall asleep for the night. Iâve got those meetings in Bridger tomorrow, and then I have to talk to the bank. I have to leave early, so I wonât wake you. You get yourself some cereal. I wonât be back until around six oâclock, so weâll be closed. If anyone stops by after school, you can sell them leftovers, but thatâs all.â
âMm-hm.â Mamaâd set up meetings with a few farmers to see if we couldnât afford to add chickens to our menu. They were cheaper than pigs and the occasional beefsteaks we bought, and less hassle. If the prices were right and the bank loan was approved, weâd get the café back.
âThat your dinner?â
I nodded, wiping sauce from my cheeks. âHad broccoli and slaw earlier. Iâll take care of the cleanup.â
She hung up her apron, cracking her neck and moaning while she stretched her back. Then she smiled the best she could and cupped my chin. âGood boy, Bo.â
Bo . Bo was Bogart and Bogart was Daddy. Sheâd accidentally called me Daddyâs name even before he died. It was a joke back then and, boy, how we poked fun and laughed. But it wasnât funny anymore and I wasnât about to mention the slip.
âMama, what day is it?â
She glanced at the golf course calendar Iâd bought Daddy for Christmas. âTuesday, April 4th.â
I cleared my throat. âThe Masters starts this week. Remember how Daddy used to say he wanted to end up at Augusta?â
The tiniest raise of her lips was canceled out by the way her chin was shaking. âYes, I do.â She poured herself a glass of water.
âYou think we should take him there?â
She pushed against the counter with both hands, stretching. âOh, Ben. Even if the truck wasnât begging for the junkyard and even if I didnât need to keep up with the business, we donât have the money to go anywhere right now. Sometimes life doesnât give you everything you want, but if youâre lucky you have most of what you really need. Your daddy knew that.â She took a sip of water and looked at the wall like maybe it had something to say. Turning her face back to me, she lifted a hand to my cheek. âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
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I went back to the shed and dealt with the hog. It wasnât a particularly big one, which I was glad to see. Daddyâd taught me careful, telling me to watch when I wasnât more than five and having me take a knife on my seventh birthday. Not a pretty sight, heâd said, but everything worth having in life starts messy. Like your golf game , heâd joke. Heck, like my golf game.
Mrs. Grady was just visible over her backyard fence. It was close to eight oâclock, and she was wearing a nightgown and special socks that kept her leg veins held in, holding a rake and hacking away at the Spanish moss hanging from her trees. She hated that stuff. Crazy Grady was somewhere in her eighties and thought her husband was still alive.
Mama sent me over there once a week or so to bring her a plate of barbecue and visit for a while, which I didnât mind at all. I usually just sketched or painted while she servedwalnut bars to me and talked about Mr. Gradyâs arthritis. I thought about calling a hello to her, but decided the pig needed to be butchered more than Mrs. Grady needed to have another