with his strong, muscular arm and lifted her up from the bed. He moved her toward the center of it and lay her back down. She had her shirt off but he was still fully clothed.
“Take off your shirt,” she said to him.
He pulled it off and she swooned at the sight of his chest. His body was perfectly formed, like a chiseled statue. She reached up and touched the muscles on his chest and abdomen. Then she began to open the buckle of his belt. She got it open. He was kneeling above her, looking down at her, and she reached inside his jeans and pulled out his magnificent, throbbing penis. It was like a treasure. When she saw Josh’s penis it almost made her dizzy. It was the one thing in the world she wanted more than anything else. She wanted him so badly that she could feel her pussy moistening inside her pants.
“God,” she whispered, “you’re huge.”
Josh smiled at her and then pulled down her pants. He got them to her ankles and she kicked them off. She was completely naked now, completely exposed to his gaze. She’d been in this position so many times, with so many men, but this didn’t feel the same at all. She felt a thrill of excitement with Josh. It was as if it was her first time all over again. She felt she was getting a chance to start over with him. If only the DRMC hadn’t done all those awful things to her.
They’d ruined her. She saw Josh staring lovingly down at her vagina and suddenly she felt dirty. She felt ashamed of all the things that had been done to her, all the men who’d been inside her. She felt like her body was a garbage dump and all those men had used her to dump their loads. She felt disgusting.
She didn’t know what to do. She didn’t want Josh to look at her any more. She thought he was going to go down on her and she had to stop him. She got up and held him.
“Lie down,” she whispered to him.
Josh lay down on his back and Rose tried to hide the fear that she was feeling. She didn’t want him to know what a mess she was inside. She didn’t want him to know how turbulent and unstable she felt. She wanted to make love to him. She wanted him to be in love with her. She wanted the past to disappear as quickly as possible. If she could just force her way through her feelings she might be able to make it through to the other side.
She pulled Josh’s jeans and shorts off and flung them across the room. His cock was pointing up at her like a rocket, ready for launch. He was hungry for her. She could see that.
She put her mouth down to the head of his cock and touched it gently with her lips.
“Oh God,” Josh sighed.
She opened her mouth and let the length of his shaft slide deep into her mouth. Josh sighed in pleasure. He liked that. She knew it was what he wanted. As long as she could give him what he wanted she would be able to keep him. That was the name of the game, wasn’t it? That was the way relationships worked between a man and a woman. She would give him what he wanted and he would overlook the fact that she was sullied and tainted and dirty. He would overlook the fact that she’d been a whore. That’s what she told herself.
She drove her mouth down onto his cock as far as it could go. Her face was in his pubes, pressed against him, and his cock was far back in her throat. She moved her head back and forth slowly, trying to keep his cock as far inside her mouth as possible. She would make him come with her mouth. That way he wouldn’t have to go near her disgusting pussy. He deserved better than that. He deserved so much more than her.
“Rose,” Josh said as she moved her head rhythmically back and forth on his cock.
She had him far back in her throat, so far that she wanted to gag, but she kept moving her head back and forth, faster and faster.
“Rose,” Josh said again. “Are you alright?”
She started slamming her face down into him as she tried to move faster and faster, up and down his cock like a whore giving a twenty-dollar blow