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meantime.”
    “Trust me, he did not suffer in the least bit,” Suzanne laughed.  “Now, back to your research.  That is where your journal comes in.  Put yourself in one of their shoes and ask these questions to yourself. Who would you w ant to journey with you? Why would you be brought to a pl ace of wanting this type of relationship ? What would you want once you got there? When would you w ant to be fully involved and h ow would you feel during the process of discovery?  This is the philosophy of self, the eternal questions of Who am I and Why am I? ”
    “I noticed you said ‘one of their shoes.’ Why not both?”
    “Ah hah, you’re catching on.  Can a person be both a child and an adult at the same time?  C a n another be both a parent and a lover, barring the stigma of incest? The one to pick to study should be the one you h a ve the most difficulty rel ating to .  By struggling with yourself, you will be able to formulate the right type of questions.  Let Bryon help you with that decision since he’ll be spending all that time with you during the project.  He’s very objective and I trust his opinion.”
    “Yes, ma’am,” came the eager response.
    “Oh, yes.  When you do decide which role you are going to explore, please let me know.  I might need to find another individual to rese a rch the opposite perspective. There are too many variables that we’ll need to identify as the study grows for just one field worker to handle. There are also gender considerations, as well as relational and cultural.”
    “Don’t forget spiritual.  I would guess that some people r aised in a religious environment might have some conflicts or even be drawn more into it because of how they were raised,” Kristina considered, thinking.  She had also picked up on the word ‘individual’ in lieu of ‘student’. “Would that individual be working with me on the research?” Kristina asked.
    “That would be up to you, my dear.”
    Kristina’s thoughts immediately went to Bryan.  Would he be willing to help with her research?  She strongly suspected she already knew the answer.
    Suz anne watched Kristina leave and leaned back in her chair.  She thought of the instructor who had opened the doors for her twenty years earlier.  He had been her mentor, her friend, her lover and her first Dom. He had also become her husband and taught her everything he knew about their secret world. He had disapproved of Suzanne wanting to Top, causing them to amicably part ways several years later.
    Suzanne considered the questions she had given Kristina.  Douglas had obtained primary custody after their divorce, leaving her to raise her two daughters on weekends and during the summer while he pursued his extra-curricular interests.  Those girls had been her treasures and they had grown up too quickly. Gloria, just turned 20, had recently moved south with her new boyfriend to help him with his kennel.  To both Suzanne’s delight -and dismay- she frequently showed up unannounced to her mother’s home. But Suzanne had missed so much of the growing process of her beloved daughters and longed for the sweet stage where mommy could do no wrong and could fix every hurt. She wanted a child who would never really grow up, except during special times when an adult companion was needed.
    She had been introduced to age-play during a session with a young female submissive several years after her divorce.  The women had been referred to Suzanne by her regular Dom to address her ‘mommy’ issues. The Dom had been Douglas.  Once again, he sent her in a direction that only he knew she had needed.  Together, they topped the young woman and helped her regain her sense of self. Armed with new confidence, the woman pursued a lesbian relationship.  She had returned to Suzanne for counseling about her struggle with wanting to pursue another mommy/daughter relationship.  This time, with her partner.
    Suzanne was forever grateful for